yin..yang
you know, i dont think i have ever felt more comfortable talking to someone about anything than kim. she is liek my best friedn ever and i dont think can even fathom her moving, i just take for granted everything i have sometimes.
Tonight was both sad and happy for me. I realized that maybe i'm not so sheltered afterall, and i live in the real world. At the same time i am surrounded by so many good friends and loving people, that me personally am a walking bubble. But life is real, i know why i realized that tonight, but i live in a real world, and there are no do-overs.
Kim's home!.... gwad i missed the intellegent conversation. I mean, no offence, but all the rest of my friends giggle about is pretty much boys and friend scandels. Its fun but i talked to kim for about an hour tonight, i feel so, i dont know how to say, at peace maybe? i have been living a soap opera this summer and i realized i have had a lot of unessiary anger and hate in me. I just feel alot better right now.
But at them same time i am torn because of another realization i have had. No everyone is a bubble, as it were...... and i was shocked and scared and i am just glad to back, inside where i can listen to old songs...
that makes me feel better believe it or not, i feel 100% better after listning to a song that matches my mood or how i want to feel.
and to all my friends who read this and happen to be talking to me in person or on aim or on the phone, sorry, but i dont feel like talking now, and i dont know if want to pretend to be happy either :(
Tonight was both sad and happy for me. I realized that maybe i'm not so sheltered afterall, and i live in the real world. At the same time i am surrounded by so many good friends and loving people, that me personally am a walking bubble. But life is real, i know why i realized that tonight, but i live in a real world, and there are no do-overs.
Kim's home!.... gwad i missed the intellegent conversation. I mean, no offence, but all the rest of my friends giggle about is pretty much boys and friend scandels. Its fun but i talked to kim for about an hour tonight, i feel so, i dont know how to say, at peace maybe? i have been living a soap opera this summer and i realized i have had a lot of unessiary anger and hate in me. I just feel alot better right now.
But at them same time i am torn because of another realization i have had. No everyone is a bubble, as it were...... and i was shocked and scared and i am just glad to back, inside where i can listen to old songs...
that makes me feel better believe it or not, i feel 100% better after listning to a song that matches my mood or how i want to feel.
and to all my friends who read this and happen to be talking to me in person or on aim or on the phone, sorry, but i dont feel like talking now, and i dont know if want to pretend to be happy either :(