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sigh... I just reliazed I'm probbily going to be alone my entire life...seems like every time somthing goes good with someone I fuck it up some how...like Apollo...he claims I was "too jelous" thats why he broke up with me...well hello?? How could I not be so jelous? I mean shit...he gave me almost every reason to be jelous...gah I hate this...I seem to fuck everything up. I mean seems like the moment some one likes me, and shows me attention to make me feel special..I go off and get jelous or somthin like that and ruin anything going on....its horriable..I hate my self somtimes. :( I put my self on medication cuz I get such bad anxity attacks and it seems to be helping alittle bit, not nearly as well as I would have hoped. Oh well life goes on though right?
Well, I officaly passed my 90 day probatinary period at work so I'm offical. woop..I guess. Also I went and looked at apartments and I found one, Canyon Creek, a one bedroom for $499 a month, usually its $620 so thats good deal! My grandma filled the app out to be a co-signer yesterday so hopefully I can move in soon, its like 5-10 min walk from work so thats good :) Well anywayz I'm gunna go, just wanted to vent alittle....ahh back to work I go I guess...eww
Well, I officaly passed my 90 day probatinary period at work so I'm offical. woop..I guess. Also I went and looked at apartments and I found one, Canyon Creek, a one bedroom for $499 a month, usually its $620 so thats good deal! My grandma filled the app out to be a co-signer yesterday so hopefully I can move in soon, its like 5-10 min walk from work so thats good :) Well anywayz I'm gunna go, just wanted to vent alittle....ahh back to work I go I guess...eww