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sigh.....
I'm just having a bad night....Apollo decided not to take that one job, but instead a better one working at a wearhouse with Kyle and Brit. I feel like crap, cuz I feel like Apollo alwayz has to better than me.....he got a good job (i cant even get a crappy job) he has an awesome flip cell phone, and awesome verizon service (mine is a piece of shit one that freezes and has crappy service...gah to cingular!) and well..everything is just better....***sigh***.....I'm depresed and it sucks, I just want to give up sometimes, I mean I love apollo alot. but sometimes it seems as if he doesnt love me....I KNOW he does, but I cant stop thinking about everything that happended while we were broken up, it still hurts....:( yeah I know we were broken up, but i just couldnt ever imagnine him doing those stuff a month after we broke up....oh well Im trying to get over it...its just hard..........I wish I didnt feel like i have to be the one to impress everyone all the time...
Icutmyself for the first time in 2 months....why?? I just dont know...I'm just depressed I guess :(
I'm just having a bad night....Apollo decided not to take that one job, but instead a better one working at a wearhouse with Kyle and Brit. I feel like crap, cuz I feel like Apollo alwayz has to better than me.....he got a good job (i cant even get a crappy job) he has an awesome flip cell phone, and awesome verizon service (mine is a piece of shit one that freezes and has crappy service...gah to cingular!) and well..everything is just better....***sigh***.....I'm depresed and it sucks, I just want to give up sometimes, I mean I love apollo alot. but sometimes it seems as if he doesnt love me....I KNOW he does, but I cant stop thinking about everything that happended while we were broken up, it still hurts....:( yeah I know we were broken up, but i just couldnt ever imagnine him doing those stuff a month after we broke up....oh well Im trying to get over it...its just hard..........I wish I didnt feel like i have to be the one to impress everyone all the time...
Icutmyself for the first time in 2 months....why?? I just dont know...I'm just depressed I guess :(