live and love.
I know that I have not written in a long time but I feel the need to say that I feel so blessed and happy to be alive and I will never take a single moment for granted. Every problem I was having before this weekend seems so small and unimportant.
I keep hearing, everything happens for a reason, and I DO wan't to believe that with all my heart. I can't express how scary that one moment was. It all went so fast but I do remember one thought in the mist of it happening. God am I really going to die right now? It really is a miracle how we all walked away with not one scratch, and I do believe that Erin was with us. Her picture landed right on us, and I know it was her and a lot of angels that guided me to steer my car the way I did. Honestly I don't even know what I did. It's still a mystery exactly what happened, we know it had to do with my tire blowing up but what caused that is a mystery and a freak accident. All I remember is loosing control of my car and it swarving all over the road, jerking my car into the grass ditch, seeing grass in my window, and finally coming to a stop. Alisha remembers more then I do. She lost count after the third or fourth spin, and I do believe that everyone in the back saved our life. Because she was telling me we tiped a few times and everyone shifted the other way which caused us not to roll. Two angels, these couples, I can't say enough how thankful I am for them. I have no idea who they were and i wish i would have asked names. They stoped and made the calls to the troopers. I was screaming and crying while I was hugging this lady so tightly like I knew her my whole lifetime. And for some reason it felt like I did. The guy that was with her told me that he saw it all happen, he didn't want to scare us, but said it was a mircale that we all walked out because he thought he was going to have to drag us out and get out his aid kit. Even though my car is gone, that is material and can be replaced, our lives cannot. Judy was such an angel the entire weekend. How everything worked out afterwards was a blessing. Without her I dont know what I would have done. Without Alisha being such a huge support and making all the calls I couldn't make, was such a blessing. The others in my car were also there for a reason and I believe saved our lives. Being abel to talk to aimee was a blessing. Chelsea being there and also being so kind to bring them back home was a blessing. My dad and the rest of my family I can't say enough how much I love and appreciate them for everything. And so many others. And Matt, my angel, I love him so much. He drove out of his way also two hours to be there for the ten minutes that he spent at the service plaza. I can't even decribe how amazing I felt seeing him and running into his arms. Something that now seems so small and fixable happened to us before the accident and I was so stupid because there was anger behind my I love you's on that day because I was mad over something that now seems so small. Omg I regreted that so bad. I coudln't stop saying I love you. He was such a huge support to me all weekend and said things that really made me realize how much I love him and how much of a blessing he is to me. He was and is such an angel to me. I apologize for not calling others when it all happened but after I calmed down I wanted to not think about it and enjoy what we were there for as much as I could, even though it was difficult. So I do apologize whole heartly for that.
Matt, Alisha, Judy, and I went to church on Sunday. Before this weekend Matt and I were saying that if I did end up going that we wanted to go to church together. And I'm so glad we did. The church was called Holy Faith and reminded me so much of Holy Name. It was a cute little church on a hill surrounded by nature. The mass was speaking directly to all of us. On the day of the accident Judy was telling me about this book called Dont Sweat the Small stuff. And the preist centered part of his homily on the book. And because it was all souls day he was speaking about those who have gone before us, when it is our time to go, and in the mean time living each day, and loving each other. I loved being there and I'm so glad we were abel to go.
I just had to get this all off my chest. And I want to let you all know, who ever reads this, that I love you all so much, I appreciate you, and I always will<3333333333333333333333333333
I keep hearing, everything happens for a reason, and I DO wan't to believe that with all my heart. I can't express how scary that one moment was. It all went so fast but I do remember one thought in the mist of it happening. God am I really going to die right now? It really is a miracle how we all walked away with not one scratch, and I do believe that Erin was with us. Her picture landed right on us, and I know it was her and a lot of angels that guided me to steer my car the way I did. Honestly I don't even know what I did. It's still a mystery exactly what happened, we know it had to do with my tire blowing up but what caused that is a mystery and a freak accident. All I remember is loosing control of my car and it swarving all over the road, jerking my car into the grass ditch, seeing grass in my window, and finally coming to a stop. Alisha remembers more then I do. She lost count after the third or fourth spin, and I do believe that everyone in the back saved our life. Because she was telling me we tiped a few times and everyone shifted the other way which caused us not to roll. Two angels, these couples, I can't say enough how thankful I am for them. I have no idea who they were and i wish i would have asked names. They stoped and made the calls to the troopers. I was screaming and crying while I was hugging this lady so tightly like I knew her my whole lifetime. And for some reason it felt like I did. The guy that was with her told me that he saw it all happen, he didn't want to scare us, but said it was a mircale that we all walked out because he thought he was going to have to drag us out and get out his aid kit. Even though my car is gone, that is material and can be replaced, our lives cannot. Judy was such an angel the entire weekend. How everything worked out afterwards was a blessing. Without her I dont know what I would have done. Without Alisha being such a huge support and making all the calls I couldn't make, was such a blessing. The others in my car were also there for a reason and I believe saved our lives. Being abel to talk to aimee was a blessing. Chelsea being there and also being so kind to bring them back home was a blessing. My dad and the rest of my family I can't say enough how much I love and appreciate them for everything. And so many others. And Matt, my angel, I love him so much. He drove out of his way also two hours to be there for the ten minutes that he spent at the service plaza. I can't even decribe how amazing I felt seeing him and running into his arms. Something that now seems so small and fixable happened to us before the accident and I was so stupid because there was anger behind my I love you's on that day because I was mad over something that now seems so small. Omg I regreted that so bad. I coudln't stop saying I love you. He was such a huge support to me all weekend and said things that really made me realize how much I love him and how much of a blessing he is to me. He was and is such an angel to me. I apologize for not calling others when it all happened but after I calmed down I wanted to not think about it and enjoy what we were there for as much as I could, even though it was difficult. So I do apologize whole heartly for that.
Matt, Alisha, Judy, and I went to church on Sunday. Before this weekend Matt and I were saying that if I did end up going that we wanted to go to church together. And I'm so glad we did. The church was called Holy Faith and reminded me so much of Holy Name. It was a cute little church on a hill surrounded by nature. The mass was speaking directly to all of us. On the day of the accident Judy was telling me about this book called Dont Sweat the Small stuff. And the preist centered part of his homily on the book. And because it was all souls day he was speaking about those who have gone before us, when it is our time to go, and in the mean time living each day, and loving each other. I loved being there and I'm so glad we were abel to go.
I just had to get this all off my chest. And I want to let you all know, who ever reads this, that I love you all so much, I appreciate you, and I always will<3333333333333333333333333333