Sad

[sweetdream08]

I dont know how to move on with life now. It's so hard to pass a day without thinking of him. At this very stage, I know that I need to move on with life and take care of my daughter. But what am I to do when my heart is aching so much. How am I suppose to stop this pain from killing me inside. I dont know how to wake up in the morning and be a person. I just wake up in the morning scared of life. Throughout the day, I wait for the time to come home to sleep. How do I stop feeling for this person who doesnt care about me? How do I stop thinking about him? How do I move on knowing that he is more happier than me? I dont understand why people can be so heartless and just move on without allowing the opposite person any time to cope with this heartache. I know that I'm the only sad and aching for this. He's not and I know that he's not even thinking of me anymore. I'm so stupid for crying for him and so stupid for hoping for something from him. What I am hoping for? I'm not even sure. I want so much to know that he's hurting inside, too. But I know that he's not and he will never. I was never enough for him and too much of me just pushed him away. I guess there's nothing to save and nothing to do. I guess I'm such a romantic that I want him to come back to me and tell me that he's sorry for all he's done. Or I want someone to save me from all this pain. There's no doubt that I will be with him again. I cant forgive him for what he's done and I cant forget what has happened. He has ripped my heart into a million of pieces and I'm restoring it on my own. It hurts so much to pick up the pieces and remember that my daughter is the most important person right now.

Do you know how much a person's heart hurts when it's broken by a person who doesnt care at all? It feels like knives striking you over and over again. It's like someone cutting your heart open and pouring acid on it. It's like a million paper cuts. The bleeding just doesnt stop. How do I make it stop?