"Things have changed for me, and that's okay. I feel the same, I'm on my way."

Apr 20, 2009 00:00



This is where it started, where my ridiculously cute neighbor and Archaeology 101 classmate asked me out a few times until I finally said yes.

He's leaving today and I'm so unbelievably relieved that I might implode. I've been miserable about it for months and now it's finally happening. Now there's no anticipation, just separation and I will be free from the constraints entailed with caring about it.
"Transitions" in regards to relationships are complete utter bullshit. I don't really want to see him before he leaves, lest I cry or do any such embarrassing thing. Ready to let this go already.
He said something about being disappointed in me for thinking this type of thing. I think. I didn't hear properly. But if he is disappointed in me, I'm okay with that.
Goodbye. It's time for both of us to embark on new, truly separate lives. We've been separate for months anyway. I cared about him but really hope I won't miss him.

Also, oh shit I shouldn't have opened my window because now there are all manner of bugs up in my room due to holes in the screen. Damn it! Fresh air, you are overrated. I would rather be bug free.

Oh and my horoscope for today:
[Tarot.com Aquarius Horoscope] Your plan seemed so simple before you actually began to carry it out. You know that you need to stabilize your recent growth or you risk losing what you have already gained. Adhering to your strategy is a good idea, but only up to a certain point. Following your intuition may be the wisest course of action now, as long as you take small steady steps instead of giant ones.

It seems so appropriate.

horoscope, relationship, gc, sad

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