alright alright
I guess I can write again...since like, Heather is writing journals every hour!!! Haha...JK. Although I really have nothing much to say. I'm kinda afraid to go to sleep. I don't want to have another dream like the one I had this afternoon. That was almost unbearable. I wanna call him, but I just don't know what to say. This is a weird situation, and not one I'd want anyone to go through. Cherish your families while you have them...you never know whats going to happen. Maybe the way he is now has to do with the way I treated him as a kid. I don't think I should blame myself, but who knows...I could be at fault for some of his craziness. Its rather depressing to see whats happened. Oh well...it seems I can't control this aspect of life.
So another randomness, but I have a stranger on my mind and can't seem to get him off of it. I would like to have my old self back again...but he's makin it REAL difficult. I must be crazy. How can I almost be infatuated with someone I barely know??? Maybe its a sign...or maybe not.
Maybe Melissa is right...not having to deal with guys in terms of falling for them could be beneficial to my mental health. But then again, maybe she's wrong. I can't help whats happened, I can only impact the future relationships with the opposite sex. So there must be something I'm doing wrong that I can't seem to find a new guy...I need to work on this. It doesn't matter...I think I'm destined for a life on my own. I just never realized how lonely and boring it would be. Thats it...there must be something terribly wrong with me. Just wish I could figure out what it is so I can fix it.
I love having sound on my computer again. I like to download songs...it makes me happy...lol. I cant wait to go home on Thursday to see my lil puppy. He's sooo adorable! And he's mine:)
So another randomness, but I have a stranger on my mind and can't seem to get him off of it. I would like to have my old self back again...but he's makin it REAL difficult. I must be crazy. How can I almost be infatuated with someone I barely know??? Maybe its a sign...or maybe not.
Maybe Melissa is right...not having to deal with guys in terms of falling for them could be beneficial to my mental health. But then again, maybe she's wrong. I can't help whats happened, I can only impact the future relationships with the opposite sex. So there must be something I'm doing wrong that I can't seem to find a new guy...I need to work on this. It doesn't matter...I think I'm destined for a life on my own. I just never realized how lonely and boring it would be. Thats it...there must be something terribly wrong with me. Just wish I could figure out what it is so I can fix it.
I love having sound on my computer again. I like to download songs...it makes me happy...lol. I cant wait to go home on Thursday to see my lil puppy. He's sooo adorable! And he's mine:)