change of mind
This evening Mother& I sat enchanted under the gilded encompassment of the Opera Garnier with its red velvet lining and intimate seating. The performance, a ballet, was La Petit Danseuse, a fictional but fact-based story woven around Degas' Little Dancer of 14 Years& a tribute to the artist himself. The costumes& details of the stars were meticulously recreated from Degas' paintings& sketches, but the lighting& colors brought the ballet to life& became the paintings from Musee D'Orsay.
For so long I have thought that my interest in fashion was because the clothing that I love is not being made, but the ballet showed me something else. Yes, it isn't being made, but the point isn't that I want to be the one in the designer's chair, creatign these things. I am so envious of artists who were able to paint and create before the 20th century, before clothing was "manufactured"& mass-produced& before style was so casual. Had I been in Degas' situation, I would have painted until my fingers bled. Dancers, high-society... Hell, even the prostitutes were fascinating& lot of work was put into their clothing. So my point is... I don't care if I can wear the clothing, I just want to be able to paint it being worn, to paint the portraits of elegance and angst, of dedication and character. Strange dreams. I'll just have to make the clothing myself and paint it.
I'm not going back to russia...
Insecure. Seeks roots, stability, emotional security& an environment providing greater ease& fewer problems
Your Stress Sources
Delights in the tasteful, the gracious& the sensitive, but maintains her attitude of critical appraisal& refuses to be swept off her feet unless genuineness& integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore keeps a strict& watchful control on her emotional relationships as she must know exactly where she stands. Demands complete sincerity as a protection against her own tendency to be too trusting.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Relationships rarely measure up to her high emotional expectations& her need to be made the center of things, leading to disappointment . Always has mental reservations& tends to remain emotionally isolated& unattached.
Feels that things stand in her way, that circumstances are forcing her to compromise and forgo some pleasures for the time being.
Your Desired Objective
Seeks success. Wants to overcome obstacles& opposition& to make her own decisions. Pursues her objectives single-mindedly& with initiative. Does not want to feel dependent on the good will of others.
Your Actual Problem
Works to strengthen her position and bolster her self-esteem by examining her own accomplishments (& those of others) with critical appraisal& scientific discrimination. Insists on having things clear-cut and unequivocal.
For so long I have thought that my interest in fashion was because the clothing that I love is not being made, but the ballet showed me something else. Yes, it isn't being made, but the point isn't that I want to be the one in the designer's chair, creatign these things. I am so envious of artists who were able to paint and create before the 20th century, before clothing was "manufactured"& mass-produced& before style was so casual. Had I been in Degas' situation, I would have painted until my fingers bled. Dancers, high-society... Hell, even the prostitutes were fascinating& lot of work was put into their clothing. So my point is... I don't care if I can wear the clothing, I just want to be able to paint it being worn, to paint the portraits of elegance and angst, of dedication and character. Strange dreams. I'll just have to make the clothing myself and paint it.
I'm not going back to russia...
Insecure. Seeks roots, stability, emotional security& an environment providing greater ease& fewer problems
Your Stress Sources
Delights in the tasteful, the gracious& the sensitive, but maintains her attitude of critical appraisal& refuses to be swept off her feet unless genuineness& integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore keeps a strict& watchful control on her emotional relationships as she must know exactly where she stands. Demands complete sincerity as a protection against her own tendency to be too trusting.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Relationships rarely measure up to her high emotional expectations& her need to be made the center of things, leading to disappointment . Always has mental reservations& tends to remain emotionally isolated& unattached.
Feels that things stand in her way, that circumstances are forcing her to compromise and forgo some pleasures for the time being.
Your Desired Objective
Seeks success. Wants to overcome obstacles& opposition& to make her own decisions. Pursues her objectives single-mindedly& with initiative. Does not want to feel dependent on the good will of others.
Your Actual Problem
Works to strengthen her position and bolster her self-esteem by examining her own accomplishments (& those of others) with critical appraisal& scientific discrimination. Insists on having things clear-cut and unequivocal.