Update. It's ok I guess
Mrrs. I'm a bit confused about everything else right now. I don't know if it's my own internal stuff or else it's really happening but I feel like Josie has lost all real interest in me and he's just keeping me around until he can find someone better. We were talking last weekend and he said that he was past the crush stage and was trying to decide if it's worth being in a relationship or if we should just be friends. We all know how good I am at being friends. All everyone wants from me is friendship. Damn it! I want someone that wants friends and more and all I seem to get is a cop out. And I know people need friends and shit, but I don't generally go to friend's houses and hang out. I tend to talk to people at school and email or chat. Because it's often tiring to keep up appearances for long enough around people. There are a few people that I talk to on here that I wish I could hang out with but they are too far away. People like Wendy, Ruth, Lucy, Jessie, and Sarah and Jon. But the point is what the fuck is going on?
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it's been awhile
Current mood: indescribable
Well, nana is ok incase I didn't post about that. I've been trying to pinpoint some stuff in my mind. But that hasn't really come to anything of use to me yet. My cousin called last night at almost 9 to tell me that she got her first period at school that day. I always thought I'd cry when she started because somewhere inside me she feels like mine. But I didn't I don't want her to feel bad about herself or feel like her life as a kid is over. I wanted to celebrate it and make her feel like it wasn't such a bad thing afterall. I remember telling her about it and she was a wreck, crying and everything. She was scared. But yesterday she said that it wasn't as bad as she expected. She's lucky for now and doesn't have cramps. She's turning into a young woman, but she'll always be my ShellBell.
5:41 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove
it's been awhile
Current mood: indescribable
Well, nana is ok incase I didn't post about that. I've been trying to pinpoint some stuff in my mind. But that hasn't really come to anything of use to me yet. My cousin called last night at almost 9 to tell me that she got her first period at school that day. I always thought I'd cry when she started because somewhere inside me she feels like mine. But I didn't I don't want her to feel bad about herself or feel like her life as a kid is over. I wanted to celebrate it and make her feel like it wasn't such a bad thing afterall. I remember telling her about it and she was a wreck, crying and everything. She was scared. But yesterday she said that it wasn't as bad as she expected. She's lucky for now and doesn't have cramps. She's turning into a young woman, but she'll always be my ShellBell.