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You know, I've spent some time doing stuff that I want to do the past few days. I paid more attention to things I want to do and only fulfilled obligations that I had to I didn't do anything extra. Partly because I'm feeling puny and partly cause I'm fed up with doing so frigging much for everyone.
My mom got my dad a MP3 player when my dad can barely get on the internet as it is. My sister who has actually had an MP3 player wouldn't help him fix it. I've never had one and don't know how to work one and therefore was deemed stupid for this. I got pissed and went to my room for the night and had peace watching Family Guy episodes, and reading.
I remember a time when I was scared to be too far from people. Now I wish I was a little more like that. I'm a recluse. I enjoy my alone time a little too much I guess. My sister is the one that goes out all the time and is rocking this and that. I'm more comfortable doing stranger things. I've had the desire to go outside and stare at the stars, I've ended up doing it most nights this week. I'm following whims more than I have in a long time. It's nice to let out that side of me.
I've been relatively happy, but I've been over eating big time. I'm hoping that's not why I've been happy. I should meditate more, and do yoga again, that made me feel good and grounded. I should do that.
I've been having some really paranoid dreams about my cousins getting put into foster care. It's a fear of mine because sometimes their parents are really harsh with them. Secretly when I was a kid I wished I'd get taken out of my home too. And now I wish I could afford to get out, so that's probably where it's all coming from.
I took back a few things that were duplicates today and got an energy healing book which I'm excited about and Sylvia Browne's Past Lives Future healing. I know it's probably not true but I get something deep from reading her stuff and what's the harm in that? I think truth comes out of anything that is written, said, or communicated, and that it doesn't have to be specificially the Bible or stereotypically sacred text to count. Guess I'm Quaker in that thought, you know, inner light and such.
Ohh speaking of dreams I keep dreaming that I'm dragging Josie to various weird places that I love and feel are special. I've dreamt that I've taken him out back campus to howl at the full moon, dumb I know but it's a good stress reliever. That I've taken him to the beach at Hueston's woods to walk there because I figured that he missed the water. I took him out to dance in the spring rain. All of that stuff that I'd do, or have done, with Wendy and that I don't let most people know I enjoy. I guess I really want to connect with him. Let's hope I get a chance to connect on some level.
Speaking of Wendy
Current mood: cold
I totally got a package from her today! It was great and I loved it and I can't wait to read the book which was on energy healing with Gems. And play with the pack of gems that she got me which was really expensive probably I was polite enough not to check this time, and the candle that smells sooo good.
I was playing with the stones and I put the clear quartz on the dog and she freaked out and got totally scared, which freaked me out. Pablo, the cat, loved the Hematite it mellowed him out and made him purr. The rose quartz does give off a Wendy vibe. I can't figure out which one feels like me. *ponders*
Oh yeah I've gotten some mysterious kid borne sickness that has caused me to crave much sleep, and laziness. Hopefully night quil will nip it in the butt. Tomorrow is my nana's birthday and I have to babysit. For now I'm going to go watch 2 episodes of family guy and read and sleep.
My mom got my dad a MP3 player when my dad can barely get on the internet as it is. My sister who has actually had an MP3 player wouldn't help him fix it. I've never had one and don't know how to work one and therefore was deemed stupid for this. I got pissed and went to my room for the night and had peace watching Family Guy episodes, and reading.
I remember a time when I was scared to be too far from people. Now I wish I was a little more like that. I'm a recluse. I enjoy my alone time a little too much I guess. My sister is the one that goes out all the time and is rocking this and that. I'm more comfortable doing stranger things. I've had the desire to go outside and stare at the stars, I've ended up doing it most nights this week. I'm following whims more than I have in a long time. It's nice to let out that side of me.
I've been relatively happy, but I've been over eating big time. I'm hoping that's not why I've been happy. I should meditate more, and do yoga again, that made me feel good and grounded. I should do that.
I've been having some really paranoid dreams about my cousins getting put into foster care. It's a fear of mine because sometimes their parents are really harsh with them. Secretly when I was a kid I wished I'd get taken out of my home too. And now I wish I could afford to get out, so that's probably where it's all coming from.
I took back a few things that were duplicates today and got an energy healing book which I'm excited about and Sylvia Browne's Past Lives Future healing. I know it's probably not true but I get something deep from reading her stuff and what's the harm in that? I think truth comes out of anything that is written, said, or communicated, and that it doesn't have to be specificially the Bible or stereotypically sacred text to count. Guess I'm Quaker in that thought, you know, inner light and such.
Ohh speaking of dreams I keep dreaming that I'm dragging Josie to various weird places that I love and feel are special. I've dreamt that I've taken him out back campus to howl at the full moon, dumb I know but it's a good stress reliever. That I've taken him to the beach at Hueston's woods to walk there because I figured that he missed the water. I took him out to dance in the spring rain. All of that stuff that I'd do, or have done, with Wendy and that I don't let most people know I enjoy. I guess I really want to connect with him. Let's hope I get a chance to connect on some level.
Speaking of Wendy
Current mood: cold
I totally got a package from her today! It was great and I loved it and I can't wait to read the book which was on energy healing with Gems. And play with the pack of gems that she got me which was really expensive probably I was polite enough not to check this time, and the candle that smells sooo good.
I was playing with the stones and I put the clear quartz on the dog and she freaked out and got totally scared, which freaked me out. Pablo, the cat, loved the Hematite it mellowed him out and made him purr. The rose quartz does give off a Wendy vibe. I can't figure out which one feels like me. *ponders*
Oh yeah I've gotten some mysterious kid borne sickness that has caused me to crave much sleep, and laziness. Hopefully night quil will nip it in the butt. Tomorrow is my nana's birthday and I have to babysit. For now I'm going to go watch 2 episodes of family guy and read and sleep.