Dreams.
Dear Diary,
i think at some point tonight, i realized how awfully lonely i must have been. The night before the dinner, i dreamt that my sister and i were talking like normal, that i had just imagined our fight and everything was ok. but when i finally woke up, i realized that it was the talking part that was the dream, while the bad parts were reality. Fast-forward to last night, i dreamt that two ugly and fat guys gave me and a friend (i really don't remember who) some drug that made us pass out, but luckily i wasn't completely unconscious and managed to wake up my friend in time (before one of them raped her) and call for help. The ugly, fat guys threatened us if we told anyone but i did. As a result, they set this huge, black dog on me but it attacked my large pink teddy bear Didina. (The dog's owner sorta reminded me of my friend's hubby *cough*) i tried to stop it but it was too late, and there was a huge bite mark on my beloved bear that i've had since gr. 4. i couldn't stop crying after that...
Waking up, i didn't know what to make of such an awful dream. Was there something out there so evil, so unstoppable that had attacked my most precious childhood memories and everything i hold dear, and ripped it at the seams?
Ps. Just because i hate her right now doesn't mean that i've stopped loving and missing the old her.
i think at some point tonight, i realized how awfully lonely i must have been. The night before the dinner, i dreamt that my sister and i were talking like normal, that i had just imagined our fight and everything was ok. but when i finally woke up, i realized that it was the talking part that was the dream, while the bad parts were reality. Fast-forward to last night, i dreamt that two ugly and fat guys gave me and a friend (i really don't remember who) some drug that made us pass out, but luckily i wasn't completely unconscious and managed to wake up my friend in time (before one of them raped her) and call for help. The ugly, fat guys threatened us if we told anyone but i did. As a result, they set this huge, black dog on me but it attacked my large pink teddy bear Didina. (The dog's owner sorta reminded me of my friend's hubby *cough*) i tried to stop it but it was too late, and there was a huge bite mark on my beloved bear that i've had since gr. 4. i couldn't stop crying after that...
Waking up, i didn't know what to make of such an awful dream. Was there something out there so evil, so unstoppable that had attacked my most precious childhood memories and everything i hold dear, and ripped it at the seams?
Ps. Just because i hate her right now doesn't mean that i've stopped loving and missing the old her.