And now that i've written my last exam ever... (*touchwood*)
Happy Belated Birthday to..... Robyn!! i've been hanging out at the library for so long that i lost track of time, except "there's an exam on this day of the week" and "there's a paper due when." Blah. But now that it's all over... i don't know. i feel so empty and lost all over again. Must be the lack of goals... And one does wonder why i'm not packing right now, since rez loves to kick us out within 24 hours. i dread the idea of having to look for a job. i don't mind working at all (in fact, i like having something keeping me busy like that; plus we all need the money, i'm sure), except the looking and interview part always make me feel uneasy. On the outside, they like to kid themselves and pretend it's "Are you a good fit for us?" that they're asking, but what they actually mean is "Do we think you're worth our time", which is why i tend to take rejections a bit too personally.
Anyways i'm exhausted so i should sleep soon and worry about packing later (though my parents will kill me, i'm sure, since they still need to pick up my sis after school). Thank u Meli for heating up my samosa and sharing soup with me this morning, it meant a lot to me that you cared while i was stressing so much!
Ps. i deleted him awhile ago even though this morning's last "study session" went ok and he actually helped me relax and not stress about CO. (i actually don't really like how he peered over at what i was reading and then started studying the same thing, cuz i feel he's a bit competitive.. then again so am i, with him anyways. Damn battle of the sexes, i may be a bit too much of a feminist when i write essays, but usually i'm more "traditional" (close-minded hah!), so it's really just with him that i'm competitive, too. He had a whole week to study for the same stuff, plus he's only taking 3 courses, so i don't know what he's competiting about.) And you guys know me, i don't like tolerating people who put me down and make me feel bad about myself. Like what's the point? Life's too short to take shit from others, plus even our closest friends drift apart thanks to time and circumstance, so i don't feel too badly kicking assholes to the curb. He might think i'm a bitch though cuz i finally returned his sample exam sol'ns at lunch and might've appeared to have been using him just for that, not to mention i slept in though i promised to return them in the morning, but whatever. i don't care if he's way taller and looks as mean as he is. (The "worst" possible thing to happen is if i run into him at Chalmers, but so what, we're very good at ignoring each other sitting next to each other in DC anyways.) i should've yelled at him that night just to let it all out, but yeah i was dumb and kept my mouth shut cuz i had just moved there. He should consider himself damn lucky i hadn't given him the Desmond treatment, because he's pretty much at the same level now >=[
And yes, that's the last time i vent about this cuz once i'm home, it's time to r e l a x and not think about school! *happy sigh*... i miss procrastinating at home doing nothing but lounging around in the family room... just like the summer of gr. 5! Except i was "young" enough to play "astronaut games" with Mui under the indoor Playskool plastic slide with our stuffed animals, though i'm starting to think i enjoyed them more cuz she was only 2 and too little to understand, while i had always loved astronomy and wanted to be an astronaut... oh those were the days =)
Anyways i'm exhausted so i should sleep soon and worry about packing later (though my parents will kill me, i'm sure, since they still need to pick up my sis after school). Thank u Meli for heating up my samosa and sharing soup with me this morning, it meant a lot to me that you cared while i was stressing so much!
Ps. i deleted him awhile ago even though this morning's last "study session" went ok and he actually helped me relax and not stress about CO. (i actually don't really like how he peered over at what i was reading and then started studying the same thing, cuz i feel he's a bit competitive.. then again so am i, with him anyways. Damn battle of the sexes, i may be a bit too much of a feminist when i write essays, but usually i'm more "traditional" (close-minded hah!), so it's really just with him that i'm competitive, too. He had a whole week to study for the same stuff, plus he's only taking 3 courses, so i don't know what he's competiting about.) And you guys know me, i don't like tolerating people who put me down and make me feel bad about myself. Like what's the point? Life's too short to take shit from others, plus even our closest friends drift apart thanks to time and circumstance, so i don't feel too badly kicking assholes to the curb. He might think i'm a bitch though cuz i finally returned his sample exam sol'ns at lunch and might've appeared to have been using him just for that, not to mention i slept in though i promised to return them in the morning, but whatever. i don't care if he's way taller and looks as mean as he is. (The "worst" possible thing to happen is if i run into him at Chalmers, but so what, we're very good at ignoring each other sitting next to each other in DC anyways.) i should've yelled at him that night just to let it all out, but yeah i was dumb and kept my mouth shut cuz i had just moved there. He should consider himself damn lucky i hadn't given him the Desmond treatment, because he's pretty much at the same level now >=[
And yes, that's the last time i vent about this cuz once i'm home, it's time to r e l a x and not think about school! *happy sigh*... i miss procrastinating at home doing nothing but lounging around in the family room... just like the summer of gr. 5! Except i was "young" enough to play "astronaut games" with Mui under the indoor Playskool plastic slide with our stuffed animals, though i'm starting to think i enjoyed them more cuz she was only 2 and too little to understand, while i had always loved astronomy and wanted to be an astronaut... oh those were the days =)