The Day i Pushed Him Away.
i'm dead :'( Only on.. hmmm... 1st-order languages right now, frig. Review session @ 5 pm... o"o Came to DC w/ Meli @ 10 am & he didn't come until this afternoon after i finished my lunch. dum di dum... why do i even bother updating (oh, it's cuz i'm dumb and want him to be looking at my msn name lol). Back to work, this has gotta be the lamest entry ever.
Edit // 11:24 pm.
Still at DC. i'm so saddddd :'( It's partially my fault for being too sensitive. (i can't concentrate.) Review session turned out horrible cuz... well, he didn't come looking for me and left with his raspy-voiced friend Ray. Can you imagine? He had the nerve to go look for the other guy when he sits next to me in class! :''''''( So yeah, i went with Jon but i was still upset, so after the session was over at 7, he got up, turned around and gave me his "hey it's you" smile which i would've found cute had i not been upset. i just sorta looked at him, not sure if u could say it was a "hurt" look or what, but i asked Jon if he was going to Timmy's with me and he said no so i went by myself. As in practically ran outta class to SLC :P So i was around outside Bomber when he called me twice. "Jess!" i only stopped and turned around the second time and he was like "you didn't answer until the second time" when he reached me, so i said "i didn't hear you." o"o He was still in a good mood at the time, so he was like "Going to Tim Gei?" i said yes and he said "Good choice hahah." When i lined up, he was like "Hold these for me pls! i have to run to the bathroom :D" and gave me his plastic file and LeSportsac pouch. Even though i was mad, i still couldn't help but laugh out loud after he was gone cuz he has Einstein's pic in his plastic file case -__-*
When he came back and stood next to me, i handed him back his stuff without looking at me and he budded in line happily. But then... ok fine it was my own fault, i ignored him. i looked out the window, looked around at the most lamest shit on the windows of Timmies... and then finally i stepped a little before him and was in the line ahead of him. We did not talk one bit while in the line. Ok fine, i was to blame for being so "little air", but still. *sigh*... So after i got my stuff, i grabbed a napkin in the dispenser next to him while he was waiting and i said "hey". He ignored me. i whacked him lightly w/ my napkin. He looked over and i asked, "What'd you get?" "A bagel." No smile. "i'm gonna head back to DC first, k?" He nodded. In the end, he came back first (damn me and my short legs) but yeah... i was pretty upset about it for hours and hours, and i noticed how he went out a lot too, probably to smoke? :'( Was it my own fault? Meli (who was sweet enough to cook us curry rice) said we're both weird. Anyways i should get back to studying... *sigh* everything sucks big time. i wonder if he'd ever talk to me again (in person i mean, not msn, cuz we stopped talking on msn a long time ago...)
Edit // 11:24 pm.
Still at DC. i'm so saddddd :'( It's partially my fault for being too sensitive. (i can't concentrate.) Review session turned out horrible cuz... well, he didn't come looking for me and left with his raspy-voiced friend Ray. Can you imagine? He had the nerve to go look for the other guy when he sits next to me in class! :''''''( So yeah, i went with Jon but i was still upset, so after the session was over at 7, he got up, turned around and gave me his "hey it's you" smile which i would've found cute had i not been upset. i just sorta looked at him, not sure if u could say it was a "hurt" look or what, but i asked Jon if he was going to Timmy's with me and he said no so i went by myself. As in practically ran outta class to SLC :P So i was around outside Bomber when he called me twice. "Jess!" i only stopped and turned around the second time and he was like "you didn't answer until the second time" when he reached me, so i said "i didn't hear you." o"o He was still in a good mood at the time, so he was like "Going to Tim Gei?" i said yes and he said "Good choice hahah." When i lined up, he was like "Hold these for me pls! i have to run to the bathroom :D" and gave me his plastic file and LeSportsac pouch. Even though i was mad, i still couldn't help but laugh out loud after he was gone cuz he has Einstein's pic in his plastic file case -__-*
When he came back and stood next to me, i handed him back his stuff without looking at me and he budded in line happily. But then... ok fine it was my own fault, i ignored him. i looked out the window, looked around at the most lamest shit on the windows of Timmies... and then finally i stepped a little before him and was in the line ahead of him. We did not talk one bit while in the line. Ok fine, i was to blame for being so "little air", but still. *sigh*... So after i got my stuff, i grabbed a napkin in the dispenser next to him while he was waiting and i said "hey". He ignored me. i whacked him lightly w/ my napkin. He looked over and i asked, "What'd you get?" "A bagel." No smile. "i'm gonna head back to DC first, k?" He nodded. In the end, he came back first (damn me and my short legs) but yeah... i was pretty upset about it for hours and hours, and i noticed how he went out a lot too, probably to smoke? :'( Was it my own fault? Meli (who was sweet enough to cook us curry rice) said we're both weird. Anyways i should get back to studying... *sigh* everything sucks big time. i wonder if he'd ever talk to me again (in person i mean, not msn, cuz we stopped talking on msn a long time ago...)