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i think i am just looking for a little excitement in my life.
i feel like most things i do are for the feeling of it... almost, the reaction i feel within myself.
i know this is horrible, but i don't know how to stop it.
i leave for california (also known as, a break from my life) in less than a week.
i hope when i get back i am a changed person...
but first i have to get there. easier said than done: i hate planes. and i'm paranoid about earthquakes.
something is wrong with me. i wish i could snap back into it... back into my life, basically. i frustrate myself... so i wonder how others feel about me? sigh.
( p.s. just wanted to seriously thank those of you who commented on my last entry. i really appreciate what each of you said, no matter how small or big. please know i read all your replies - but sometimes i just don't know what to say back. it's such a strange yet also comforting feeling to receive such helpful advice from pretty much complete strangers. <3 )
i feel like most things i do are for the feeling of it... almost, the reaction i feel within myself.
i know this is horrible, but i don't know how to stop it.
i leave for california (also known as, a break from my life) in less than a week.
i hope when i get back i am a changed person...
but first i have to get there. easier said than done: i hate planes. and i'm paranoid about earthquakes.
something is wrong with me. i wish i could snap back into it... back into my life, basically. i frustrate myself... so i wonder how others feel about me? sigh.
( p.s. just wanted to seriously thank those of you who commented on my last entry. i really appreciate what each of you said, no matter how small or big. please know i read all your replies - but sometimes i just don't know what to say back. it's such a strange yet also comforting feeling to receive such helpful advice from pretty much complete strangers. <3 )