Stronger?

[sweet_pessimism]

Tomorrow.. Tomorrow I face one of my demons. A huge demon. A demon that I should basically be charging rent.

Tomorrow afternoon, I will watch The Bridge. Description courtesy of Amazon:

The Golden Gate Bridge is an iconic structure; a symbol of San Francisco, the West, freedom - and something more, something spiritual, something words cannot describe

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[sweet_pessimism]

*hugs* Thank you, sweetie!

So, the outcome of this, that I never followed up on:

It wasn't nearly as emotional as I thought it would be. I felt strangely.. detached. It was just like watching any movie. I mean, it was sad, but in the way that a documentary about an old genocide in a country you've never been to is sad. When I watched it the second time with my parents, I noticed that my dad had a much stronger reaction to it than I did. Perhaps this is because I've already met this demon, already sat down and had tea and scones with it. He's less familiar with this demon. He likes to pretend that this demon doesn't exist, that in fact it is just a little yippy chihuahua, that may nip you and may be annoying, but can ultimately be picked up and put outside.

I also believe that the generation gap had a lot to do with it. Our generation is much more desensitized to this sort of thing. We are a confessional society (Case in point: LiveJournal, Facebook, PostSecret, etc), where sharing inner feelings is encouraged. So we are more familiar with the idea of suicide, etc. Media has also desensitized us to violence. I mean, take horror flicks - we're inundated with these images until they don't even make us flinch much anymore.

When I talked to my sociology teacher about this generation gap theory, he said he agreed that this was probably part of it, and then brought up an interesting point: The very first person who you see jump in The Bridge is a older white man. And for an older white man to see that, it immediately makes things personal. It's a compelling point.

But that's pretty much all I got from this. Compelling points, and analyzing the reactions of others viewing it.

I guess closure isn't one of those things that comes when you're ready for it. It's a cat rather than a dog. It'll come to you when it feels like it, and when you least expect it.

[midnightveritas]

Tea and scones with your inner demon, that sounds like an excelent short story! Hmm..
I'm glad though, it seems like you have this demon pretty well mastered. And I agree with the closure thing, you'll turn around one day and it's gone. *nodnod*
So, they were videotaping people doing the jump? Fascinating! I wonder if they had negotiators on standby. I know the bay bridge has a hidden net now.