A random funk..
Nothing really happened today. I don't really even know why I'm writing this, besides in order to avoid doing my bunches of English homework that's already way late..
I don't know why, but this evening a random depression has hit. I have no one here. The only person who I've kept in proper contact with, and who has returned the favor, is Alice - who I am eternally grateful for. But I don't have anyone to go get coffee with, to browse a book store with, to act crazy in a mall with, to sneak pizza and pretzels into the movie theater with.. Even my freaking English teacher has been too busy to talk to me lately. That and I bet she's annoyed that it's taking me for ever to get all my stuff turned in to her. But I just can't get around to it. I feel stuck in molasses. This whole past year has been the same thing, over and over, like Groundhog Day. I feel like it's never going to end, and it's just so discouraging.. I really have tried in school this year, and I've had freaking awesome grades up until recently. I've just.. just lost any energy, any will I had left. I'm exhausted. I've seen no fruits from all this labor, and it just makes me so tired..
Most of all, I'm lonely. So desperately lonely.
I don't know why, but this evening a random depression has hit. I have no one here. The only person who I've kept in proper contact with, and who has returned the favor, is Alice - who I am eternally grateful for. But I don't have anyone to go get coffee with, to browse a book store with, to act crazy in a mall with, to sneak pizza and pretzels into the movie theater with.. Even my freaking English teacher has been too busy to talk to me lately. That and I bet she's annoyed that it's taking me for ever to get all my stuff turned in to her. But I just can't get around to it. I feel stuck in molasses. This whole past year has been the same thing, over and over, like Groundhog Day. I feel like it's never going to end, and it's just so discouraging.. I really have tried in school this year, and I've had freaking awesome grades up until recently. I've just.. just lost any energy, any will I had left. I'm exhausted. I've seen no fruits from all this labor, and it just makes me so tired..
Most of all, I'm lonely. So desperately lonely.