If I seem a little off, here's why
A person can only take so much. I feel like I'm close to the point where I can't take it anymore. I know life has it's ups and downs but lately it seems like it's been heading downward at a steady pace. It's one thing after another. Maybe money can't buy you happiness but the lack of it can sure suck it out of your life.
As some of you may know, this stupid economy has caused the industry my main job is in to drastically spiral downward. Of course we're not the only company to do this but just about 3 or 4 weeks ago they laid off 5 very hard working, knowledable, and much needed people at my company. Then the few of us who were "lucky" enough to keep our job had to take a 20% pay cut for the next 6 months. This is huge. So it's rough but my plan was to work as many hours at my other job, Sport Chalet, to cover the difference. This would have me working roughly 70 hours a week. This is a big bummer but hey, sometimes you gotta suck it up and get through it.
Then, I just got a voicemail last night from my boss at Sport Chalet. Just like most retail companies, Sport Chalet is doing horrible at meeting their sales goals. It seems the district manager came in recently and decided to cut 500 hours on the labor budget per week. My dept. is now only allowed 10 labor hours a day (keep in mind the store is open for 12 hours a day). I'll know more tonight but now it's looking like the most I can hope for is 1 day a week there. In other words, I'm screwed yet again.
Don't get me wrong, I know I'm blessed and should feel happy that I have a roof over my head and food on the table and that a lot of my financial issues are due to my own stupid decisions in the past. But, this doesn't make me feel any better. I'm just getting insanely worn out. It feels like once a big storm comes along, I deal with it and just as things seem to settle down, I get hit again. It's gotten to the point where I don't even get upset when I hear of something new and wrong in my life. I don't have the energy to do it anymore. There's more going on in my head than just financial issues but it's not stuff I really wanna talk about.
I really don't even know why I posted this. Maybe just so I don't have to answer the question of "what's wrong?" or "Are you okay?". Maybe I'll just wear a T-Shirt with a link to this post so when someone asks me, I can just point to it.
As some of you may know, this stupid economy has caused the industry my main job is in to drastically spiral downward. Of course we're not the only company to do this but just about 3 or 4 weeks ago they laid off 5 very hard working, knowledable, and much needed people at my company. Then the few of us who were "lucky" enough to keep our job had to take a 20% pay cut for the next 6 months. This is huge. So it's rough but my plan was to work as many hours at my other job, Sport Chalet, to cover the difference. This would have me working roughly 70 hours a week. This is a big bummer but hey, sometimes you gotta suck it up and get through it.
Then, I just got a voicemail last night from my boss at Sport Chalet. Just like most retail companies, Sport Chalet is doing horrible at meeting their sales goals. It seems the district manager came in recently and decided to cut 500 hours on the labor budget per week. My dept. is now only allowed 10 labor hours a day (keep in mind the store is open for 12 hours a day). I'll know more tonight but now it's looking like the most I can hope for is 1 day a week there. In other words, I'm screwed yet again.
Don't get me wrong, I know I'm blessed and should feel happy that I have a roof over my head and food on the table and that a lot of my financial issues are due to my own stupid decisions in the past. But, this doesn't make me feel any better. I'm just getting insanely worn out. It feels like once a big storm comes along, I deal with it and just as things seem to settle down, I get hit again. It's gotten to the point where I don't even get upset when I hear of something new and wrong in my life. I don't have the energy to do it anymore. There's more going on in my head than just financial issues but it's not stuff I really wanna talk about.
I really don't even know why I posted this. Maybe just so I don't have to answer the question of "what's wrong?" or "Are you okay?". Maybe I'll just wear a T-Shirt with a link to this post so when someone asks me, I can just point to it.