FUCK

[sweet_honey820]

i really just dont even know what to say.  
its like you cant think for yourself. 
you come to me (ME= your best friend of like 8 yrs) with your problems, and i am more than willing to try and help you solve them. Everytime we discuss your issues and i give u advice, u seem to be so empowered afterwards, like youre ready to fight your battles and

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[__________laura]

i really do understand what you're saying and i completely know why you're saying it. i know i've been really off lately i've just been confused about a lot of things. i feel like sometimes i have absolutely no one to talk to about anything so when i try it comes out really wrong.

i am really happy with gil. of course we don't always get along but we care about each other a lot and we try really hard to make each other happy. we're in a relationship, we're going to disagree sometimes. but you know how i am with confrontation and i get upset easily. we are both putting forth an effort to make each other happy and it's hard especially since we really are such different people. but we both want to be in this relationship and we want to try to make it work.

but when i get upset it's really hard for me to express what i'm feeling and that's where we run into a problem. it's hard for me to tell him why i'm upset because for whatever reason i'm scared that he's going to be mad at me. gil and i have talked about this a lot, and i really am trying to talk to him more.

i really really respect you as a friend, and when i have a problem i can ALWAYS come to you for advice. but just because you give me your point of view doesn't mean i have to say what you tell me to say. i listen to everything you tell me but i have to make my own decisions just like you make your own decisions with you and jason. as much as you tell me you're upset and as much as i tell you to break up with him i know it's not going to happen. that's something i just have to accept.

if you want, i won't talk to you about gil anymore. but i'm not going to lie it makes me sad that there's something i can't talk to my best friend about because i fucked up. i'm sorry i got you involved when you didn't want to be involved. i know this is a different relationship because you and gil are friends and i didn't realize it.

my phone is dead but call me whenever i'll be charging it soon. hopefully we can hang out this week?

[sweet_honey820]

its not that i give u advice and expect u to say what i tell u to say....i dont expect that at all..but when youre telling me that youre going to say this and say that---then of course im going to expect u to say it then, if youre the one telling me thats wut yur going to do. so, when you end up NOT saying wut u told me u were going to say, i feel like yur lying to me pretty much. and i know u tell me to break up with jason but, thats diff than what im sayin to u. i at least confront jason when things happen or he says/does sumthin to make me upset.

idk whatever-its not that i dont want u not to talk to me about things...but basically if u say yur gunna do sumthin---then please just do it.