The end of an era.
Jason and I are over and I don't think I'll ever feel safe again.
How do things like this happen? Could I have prevented it? I don't know... I feel like I'm to blame for my own hurt.
I can't believe he would do something like this. Why does everybody I love leave me? What it is about me that is so.. undesirable? I want us to be happy again but he says I should let him go. It seems I have no choice, so..
I shall begin on my road to recovery. Or is it salvation? Either way, it's going to involve a lot of pain.
I desire companionship. Jason was my best friend. I still have Matthew, but it's unlikely he'll be there in the end. Kasey blew off my party and won't return my calls. My brother won't return my calls; haven't spoken to him since the trip a week ago. Why is it that when I'm hurting most, my friends aren't there for me?
Please, somebody rescue me. I need to feel wanted and desirable, I want to feel loved again. I hurt so much...
And now, the tears come.
How do things like this happen? Could I have prevented it? I don't know... I feel like I'm to blame for my own hurt.
I can't believe he would do something like this. Why does everybody I love leave me? What it is about me that is so.. undesirable? I want us to be happy again but he says I should let him go. It seems I have no choice, so..
I shall begin on my road to recovery. Or is it salvation? Either way, it's going to involve a lot of pain.
I desire companionship. Jason was my best friend. I still have Matthew, but it's unlikely he'll be there in the end. Kasey blew off my party and won't return my calls. My brother won't return my calls; haven't spoken to him since the trip a week ago. Why is it that when I'm hurting most, my friends aren't there for me?
Please, somebody rescue me. I need to feel wanted and desirable, I want to feel loved again. I hurt so much...
And now, the tears come.