30. Girls just wanna have fun!!
[EDIT] I accidentlly posted this earlier... I changed/added stuff...[/EDIT]
Kalen: that's so going in my lj
Me: all MEEped out?
Cliff notes version of my day
• Supposedly I'm rich
• Mrs Carter finally realized that history isn't my thing
• I played drums for 30 mins and still cant play 3 drums at once
• My mom is predictable
• A guy called me
• My mom isn't too happy that I brought my laptop and I can connect to the internet.
Hmmm. Friday. I got up at like 7 30 and left at like 8 45. then i took out my laptop and we listened to music and we went to the locker room and played drums. Melinda says I'm rich since I have a laptop.
Finaly, I was called to go register. Nothing much there. I went to have it put in the computer and Mrs. Carter did mine (she's the one I hated and one of the classes I'm like failing) and she was like "How are you?" and im like "Good you?" and she said shes still sick and im like "oh" and she looks at my classes and was like "Algebra 2 honors?" and then shes like "No chemistry honors?" and im like "I'm petitioning" and shes like "oh... so you're a math and science person... it makes sense now" and I was like "yea the history and english isnt my thing." and then we were done and she said to have a good day and I was like "You too" lol. 3/4 of the year and finaly she figures out that history just isnt my thing. I'm really trying to be nicer to her and just smile a little in her class and stuff. I really need to get like a B in that class. And the thing with her is, she was like my favorite teacher at the begining of the year. I remember going into her class after school and I'd be all hyper and me and Tania talked to her about boys. Its hard to believe that that's the same teacher that I've been hating now.
So then I went back to the locker room and we were in there till like 10 45. Then everyone left and I called my mom and I was like "Are you gonna pick me up at 1 cause we're done now" and blah blah blah. She said she'd be there in half an hour so I went to the locker room all alone to play drums for half an hour. I can play the snare and the bass together, the bass and the ride cymbal together and the ride cymbal and the snare together, but I cant play all three together!!! how annoying!! And I was messing around and I was playing this one short thing that sounded like the begining of the Sweater Song. I think I wanna play the drums in that song. They sound pretty simple. I had fun in there cause it was a chance to play for a while uninterupted and there was no one listening to be 'bored' by what I was playing.
And then my mom picked me up. I'm pretty good at predicting her. I didn't try to start any conversation in the car and I was able to guess when she would. Then we got home and I just layed down in my bed and a few minutes later she comes in to do a few things then she decides to say something to me in a bitchy voice. I've played the whole game so many times and I'm SICK of it. I tried to work it out and she wanted me to apologise for hanging up on her, but the thing is, I'm not sorry. And I don't apologise if I'm not sorry. Last time she made me apologise I twisted it to like I'm sorry I made you mad.
So we're sortta eh now. I had no ride to this thing today and I was like I can take the bus. And she was like eh and Im like I could ask Anthony or Max and shes like "No!" Then she's like "there's someone else you can ask." I'd rather take the bus. I want freedom.
Do you know how bad I want to just walk out the door, climb in somones car and be like "fuck you!" to my mom?
Oh and Kalen called me and said she was drunk. She went to someone's wedding and had some cosmopolitains. And yea. I'm gonna try to see her today. And then also, I was in my bed reading and my phone rings (well vibrates) and it was some number I dunno but so I answered it anyways and it was a guy. He said I met him like 3 weeks ago and I was like oh and he was like "it was that night with the girls making out and we wanted you and your friend to make out and then I wanted you to make out with me" and I was like yeah and he asked if I could do something sometime and I'm like I think so. I wasn't about to be like "Yea I have no plans tomorrow, how bout then?" Thats me following Kalen's "rules" But omg, I wouldn't mind seeing him tomorrow.. someone to hook up with. Thats all I want. I'm so freakin horny. lol.
So I decide to take out my laptop here at my mom's and she sees it and shes like "I thought you cant get online here" And I'm like I dont know if I can, but there's other things I can do. Awhile later she's like "Well does the internet work?" and I was like yea, but its really slow. I don't think she was very excited to see my computer and then for me to be able to use the internet? omg I bet she's so annoyed, but I think that's pointless for her to be. She should be happy that I can, but I think that she wants me to be 'punished' by not using the internet. And then if I can use my laptop, she can't be tracking my stuff. I mean I'm not using her computer or even her internet service. I'm logged on cause one of our neighbors has a wireless hub. And I'm able to get a little bit of a signal from it.
Ok a few things I was thinking about...
If my mom ever married Kevin, I would say he's my mom's husband, not my stepdad. Calling him my stepdad would be just wrong. Its too good a title.
I really don't like people. My dad and I were talking about that. I set all these expectations for myself and others and no one actually lives up to them.
Something I really wanna do... One night, when I'm out in the OT, I want to find a few guys. Pick one out and go over and be all on him and shit. Just like omg, be all on him and then be like wanna go be alone? shiiiiit!! how cool would that be? fuck look at me.. I want to do things that are considered slutty. I hate that though how a guy can hook up with different girls and hes cool, but if I do, I'm gonna be called a slut. I say fuck what they think.
Questions:
• Should I hook up with that guy? When?
• How can you go from favorite teacher to most hated teacher in a few months?
• And how do you fix that?
• Can anyone (besides Kalen) play the drums?
• Is Kalen the only person who reads my LJ?
• Why is there so much fakeness in the world?
• What's up?
The questions are for people to answer. Feel free to comment on anything else too, but these questions are the things that I really want to know plus some random thoughts.
Kalen: that's so going in my lj
Me: all MEEped out?
Cliff notes version of my day
• Supposedly I'm rich
• Mrs Carter finally realized that history isn't my thing
• I played drums for 30 mins and still cant play 3 drums at once
• My mom is predictable
• A guy called me
• My mom isn't too happy that I brought my laptop and I can connect to the internet.
Hmmm. Friday. I got up at like 7 30 and left at like 8 45. then i took out my laptop and we listened to music and we went to the locker room and played drums. Melinda says I'm rich since I have a laptop.
Finaly, I was called to go register. Nothing much there. I went to have it put in the computer and Mrs. Carter did mine (she's the one I hated and one of the classes I'm like failing) and she was like "How are you?" and im like "Good you?" and she said shes still sick and im like "oh" and she looks at my classes and was like "Algebra 2 honors?" and then shes like "No chemistry honors?" and im like "I'm petitioning" and shes like "oh... so you're a math and science person... it makes sense now" and I was like "yea the history and english isnt my thing." and then we were done and she said to have a good day and I was like "You too" lol. 3/4 of the year and finaly she figures out that history just isnt my thing. I'm really trying to be nicer to her and just smile a little in her class and stuff. I really need to get like a B in that class. And the thing with her is, she was like my favorite teacher at the begining of the year. I remember going into her class after school and I'd be all hyper and me and Tania talked to her about boys. Its hard to believe that that's the same teacher that I've been hating now.
So then I went back to the locker room and we were in there till like 10 45. Then everyone left and I called my mom and I was like "Are you gonna pick me up at 1 cause we're done now" and blah blah blah. She said she'd be there in half an hour so I went to the locker room all alone to play drums for half an hour. I can play the snare and the bass together, the bass and the ride cymbal together and the ride cymbal and the snare together, but I cant play all three together!!! how annoying!! And I was messing around and I was playing this one short thing that sounded like the begining of the Sweater Song. I think I wanna play the drums in that song. They sound pretty simple. I had fun in there cause it was a chance to play for a while uninterupted and there was no one listening to be 'bored' by what I was playing.
And then my mom picked me up. I'm pretty good at predicting her. I didn't try to start any conversation in the car and I was able to guess when she would. Then we got home and I just layed down in my bed and a few minutes later she comes in to do a few things then she decides to say something to me in a bitchy voice. I've played the whole game so many times and I'm SICK of it. I tried to work it out and she wanted me to apologise for hanging up on her, but the thing is, I'm not sorry. And I don't apologise if I'm not sorry. Last time she made me apologise I twisted it to like I'm sorry I made you mad.
So we're sortta eh now. I had no ride to this thing today and I was like I can take the bus. And she was like eh and Im like I could ask Anthony or Max and shes like "No!" Then she's like "there's someone else you can ask." I'd rather take the bus. I want freedom.
Do you know how bad I want to just walk out the door, climb in somones car and be like "fuck you!" to my mom?
Oh and Kalen called me and said she was drunk. She went to someone's wedding and had some cosmopolitains. And yea. I'm gonna try to see her today. And then also, I was in my bed reading and my phone rings (well vibrates) and it was some number I dunno but so I answered it anyways and it was a guy. He said I met him like 3 weeks ago and I was like oh and he was like "it was that night with the girls making out and we wanted you and your friend to make out and then I wanted you to make out with me" and I was like yeah and he asked if I could do something sometime and I'm like I think so. I wasn't about to be like "Yea I have no plans tomorrow, how bout then?" Thats me following Kalen's "rules" But omg, I wouldn't mind seeing him tomorrow.. someone to hook up with. Thats all I want. I'm so freakin horny. lol.
So I decide to take out my laptop here at my mom's and she sees it and shes like "I thought you cant get online here" And I'm like I dont know if I can, but there's other things I can do. Awhile later she's like "Well does the internet work?" and I was like yea, but its really slow. I don't think she was very excited to see my computer and then for me to be able to use the internet? omg I bet she's so annoyed, but I think that's pointless for her to be. She should be happy that I can, but I think that she wants me to be 'punished' by not using the internet. And then if I can use my laptop, she can't be tracking my stuff. I mean I'm not using her computer or even her internet service. I'm logged on cause one of our neighbors has a wireless hub. And I'm able to get a little bit of a signal from it.
Ok a few things I was thinking about...
If my mom ever married Kevin, I would say he's my mom's husband, not my stepdad. Calling him my stepdad would be just wrong. Its too good a title.
I really don't like people. My dad and I were talking about that. I set all these expectations for myself and others and no one actually lives up to them.
Something I really wanna do... One night, when I'm out in the OT, I want to find a few guys. Pick one out and go over and be all on him and shit. Just like omg, be all on him and then be like wanna go be alone? shiiiiit!! how cool would that be? fuck look at me.. I want to do things that are considered slutty. I hate that though how a guy can hook up with different girls and hes cool, but if I do, I'm gonna be called a slut. I say fuck what they think.
Questions:
• Should I hook up with that guy? When?
• How can you go from favorite teacher to most hated teacher in a few months?
• And how do you fix that?
• Can anyone (besides Kalen) play the drums?
• Is Kalen the only person who reads my LJ?
• Why is there so much fakeness in the world?
• What's up?
The questions are for people to answer. Feel free to comment on anything else too, but these questions are the things that I really want to know plus some random thoughts.