It's over
Ok, I think it's over. I am pretty sure it's over.
Ok. So you all know the problems I have been having at work. I am tired of being treated like an indentured servant that is un appreciated and treated badly. I have always used the excuse of "he's my father, I argue back, he needs me", etc. Thinking about it now I am thinking of what's going on and saying to myself it's just gotten worse and that it's not going to change. I realize now that this is what I went through with my ex-husband...he's ex for that reason.
I also have listened to him rail about former employees who "took advantage of him, weren't worth the money he paid them, should have goten rid of them sooner, stole from him" and so forth and so on. He is starting this shit about Gary and I have no idea what he is saying about me, not sure I want to know. This usually happens wehen he is short on money and looking for a way to fire good workers and justifying it to himself. They start out great and all is right with the world but it deteriorates once they want a raise or some sort of benefits. Of course you only hear his side of the story.
I have sold three units off the floor in the last few weeks and he said he would give me $50 for each item I sold off the floor. Have I seen that money, no, of course not. One he is installing today and yes he took the money but I made the sale, they talked to me and came back the next day to see what kind of discount John woud give them. So he took the $ hence he claimed the sale.
As I posted yesterday he is closing the store for two weeks next week. I am going to demand all the money he owes me and give my two weeks notice....I think. I am still afraid to leave and have to find another job that won't be a walk in the park. I mean this job is so easy and I don't do much really, mostly make appointments and do paperwork so a lot of the time I am just a warm body in the shop. So it's the stress of looking for another job and being turned down. The financial strain it will put on my family without the second income. My depression- which is already kicking in.
I just have to keep telling myself that it isn't worth my self-destructive behaviors to stay.
Being off for 2 weeks is nice, especially since princess_luna will be here and this gives me time to really get my house clean...ok it will probably only get cleaner but it's still better than the mess it's in right now.
Now I just have to stick to my resolve and actually do it.
Ok. So you all know the problems I have been having at work. I am tired of being treated like an indentured servant that is un appreciated and treated badly. I have always used the excuse of "he's my father, I argue back, he needs me", etc. Thinking about it now I am thinking of what's going on and saying to myself it's just gotten worse and that it's not going to change. I realize now that this is what I went through with my ex-husband...he's ex for that reason.
I also have listened to him rail about former employees who "took advantage of him, weren't worth the money he paid them, should have goten rid of them sooner, stole from him" and so forth and so on. He is starting this shit about Gary and I have no idea what he is saying about me, not sure I want to know. This usually happens wehen he is short on money and looking for a way to fire good workers and justifying it to himself. They start out great and all is right with the world but it deteriorates once they want a raise or some sort of benefits. Of course you only hear his side of the story.
I have sold three units off the floor in the last few weeks and he said he would give me $50 for each item I sold off the floor. Have I seen that money, no, of course not. One he is installing today and yes he took the money but I made the sale, they talked to me and came back the next day to see what kind of discount John woud give them. So he took the $ hence he claimed the sale.
As I posted yesterday he is closing the store for two weeks next week. I am going to demand all the money he owes me and give my two weeks notice....I think. I am still afraid to leave and have to find another job that won't be a walk in the park. I mean this job is so easy and I don't do much really, mostly make appointments and do paperwork so a lot of the time I am just a warm body in the shop. So it's the stress of looking for another job and being turned down. The financial strain it will put on my family without the second income. My depression- which is already kicking in.
I just have to keep telling myself that it isn't worth my self-destructive behaviors to stay.
Being off for 2 weeks is nice, especially since princess_luna will be here and this gives me time to really get my house clean...ok it will probably only get cleaner but it's still better than the mess it's in right now.
Now I just have to stick to my resolve and actually do it.