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i just feel good about humanity right now
I just watched the movie sicko earlier today and it made me a bit depressed, a lot depressed actually I cried pretty much through all of it, about how badly some people have to live. About the hand that some people have been dealt, you know? So sad, but then I saw how in the other countries every one was so helpful and even in this country the corruption is done by a handful and there's only love with the rest of the people, maybe they aid in the corruption but there's still love and guilt over what they've done you know? there's so much humanity, there's so much brotherhood in people. people care, you know? i really think a lot of people care. i care. i think it's hard to be able to help. i think maybe not a lot of people know how so they shut the caring out of their mind so they don't have to feel with the guilt of acting differently than they feel but i believe the love is there and if everyone could see the suffering of everyone else and there was a way they could help they'd do it. human beings are beautiful.
i also just watched the video for common come close to me and that made me cry too. i think it's because i watched sicko and that set me off. i want to help people in my life, i don't know how. i don't do anything for people anymore, i need to get back into community service, it really made me happy when i went to the retirement center. i wish i didn't love money so much. i should love people more than i love money. i think to me money is independence and freedom and those things are hard for me to sacrifice. but i think if people decided we were going to become communist i wouldn't fight too hard. i know it's not efficient because there's not enough love i guess. people wont do for others what they'll do for themselves, not enough productivity. i understand it too, i understand that. i love me first. i love me best. but i know that's not the truth that i'm looking for. that's not what's real.
i remember mr. berry talking about femminist communist women and how he loved that, and i thought it was the stupidest thing ever, and now i sort of like the idea of those too. who knows. who knows who knows. love is suppressed it's not advertized. sex is advertized. jealousy is advertized. passion. not enough love. peaceful love, helpful love.
i'm working on my ohm. i hope michael moore really is a good person and isn't in it for the money or anything, i hope he believes what he says and doesn't just do it to get ahead. that'd be the worst. i don't think that's true.
I just watched the movie sicko earlier today and it made me a bit depressed, a lot depressed actually I cried pretty much through all of it, about how badly some people have to live. About the hand that some people have been dealt, you know? So sad, but then I saw how in the other countries every one was so helpful and even in this country the corruption is done by a handful and there's only love with the rest of the people, maybe they aid in the corruption but there's still love and guilt over what they've done you know? there's so much humanity, there's so much brotherhood in people. people care, you know? i really think a lot of people care. i care. i think it's hard to be able to help. i think maybe not a lot of people know how so they shut the caring out of their mind so they don't have to feel with the guilt of acting differently than they feel but i believe the love is there and if everyone could see the suffering of everyone else and there was a way they could help they'd do it. human beings are beautiful.
i also just watched the video for common come close to me and that made me cry too. i think it's because i watched sicko and that set me off. i want to help people in my life, i don't know how. i don't do anything for people anymore, i need to get back into community service, it really made me happy when i went to the retirement center. i wish i didn't love money so much. i should love people more than i love money. i think to me money is independence and freedom and those things are hard for me to sacrifice. but i think if people decided we were going to become communist i wouldn't fight too hard. i know it's not efficient because there's not enough love i guess. people wont do for others what they'll do for themselves, not enough productivity. i understand it too, i understand that. i love me first. i love me best. but i know that's not the truth that i'm looking for. that's not what's real.
i remember mr. berry talking about femminist communist women and how he loved that, and i thought it was the stupidest thing ever, and now i sort of like the idea of those too. who knows. who knows who knows. love is suppressed it's not advertized. sex is advertized. jealousy is advertized. passion. not enough love. peaceful love, helpful love.
i'm working on my ohm. i hope michael moore really is a good person and isn't in it for the money or anything, i hope he believes what he says and doesn't just do it to get ahead. that'd be the worst. i don't think that's true.