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Does anyone else ever suddenly get overwhelmingly depressed-like, unable to function, crying in the middle of work, crying on the way home, exhausted depressed- not about anything that’s happened to you, or that’s going on in your own life, but just about the general condition of the world around you? That all over the world, right now, people are being killed, raped, tortured, imprisoned, humiliated, starved, denied their basic rights, everyday, and it never stops? And it’s happened from the start, and it’ll keep happening, and there’s nothing you do can stop it?
I don’t see anyone else dealing with this, so it seems like I’m the only person who ever gets this way. Part of me wonders if maybe I’m just too soft-hearted for real life, while the other part wonders how on earth everyone else can just be moving along, undisturbed, like nothing’s happened.
But some days I just can’t deal anymore: sometimes it’s out the blue, other times I’ll have seen something or read something that set me off, but there are days when I just wish I was dead, or senseless, because the world is grotesque and there’s nothing I can do-nothing I can ever do- to really change it, and I just can’t stand it. I can’t help but think there must be other people who feel like this, at least once in awhile.