no.
It's hard sometimes. Having to keep quiet about something you know because the way you found out is less than admirable. I try to go about things in a round-about way, but it just doesn't seem to work for me. I can't find out information like this, because this person goes in a round-about way of answering. you know.. the whole "will-only-give-half-truths-unless-asked-a-direct-question" bullshit.
the same shit i pull on people.
that's how i know when it's done to me.
i hate this game. i don't even know why i'm playing it. i suppose it's because i try to give the benefit of a doubt. because i want to be wrong... unfortunately, i'm almost always right. my intuition is screaming at me to get away because it's going to get messy, but my head is telling me to stay put and give it a chance.
i don't want to resent, but i feel the possibility of it getting that way. tell me one thing, do another behind my back. tell me you support me but won't let go of what is holding us back.
i can't put my guard down if i don't feel like you're all about me.
i can't trust you fully, until i know that you're only mine.
i can't bring you in, if i know you're not ready yet.
and i won't.
the same shit i pull on people.
that's how i know when it's done to me.
i hate this game. i don't even know why i'm playing it. i suppose it's because i try to give the benefit of a doubt. because i want to be wrong... unfortunately, i'm almost always right. my intuition is screaming at me to get away because it's going to get messy, but my head is telling me to stay put and give it a chance.
i don't want to resent, but i feel the possibility of it getting that way. tell me one thing, do another behind my back. tell me you support me but won't let go of what is holding us back.
i can't put my guard down if i don't feel like you're all about me.
i can't trust you fully, until i know that you're only mine.
i can't bring you in, if i know you're not ready yet.
and i won't.