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this sucks. i need about a gallon of motivation and have a tablespoon tank. then even the meager amount of time and planning i alot gets shot to shit and then i'm also off ont he wrong foot and 85% less able to concentrate on what iw as doing. i already spent about an hour writing about how aggravating the morning was and listening to aimee mann and now i'm typing more and listening to shakira. rah.
i'm sick from going to the mall on saturday for glasses i suppose. it's stuffiness, dryness, coughing, feverish, sweaty but not enough to really alter my day, i couldn't really breath when i jogged yesterday but i would have got rained out today anyway. i'm really loving jogging. it's great to get the adrenaline pumping first thing in the morning when my patience is the shortest and before i've drank any coffee and don't feel like doing anything aerobic. i haven't even run at any real speed yet...i'm concentrating on just steady jogging and adding laps as i go along. i'm too impatient to stretch but it seems if i start out slow and warm up it does the job and i'm hoping it will help my back in the process because my thigh muscles have been so tight and i also feel my chest and back muscles loosening up after i've been running for awhile.
i only have read for about 20 minutes today and about the only thing i got done on my list for this week was getting together my costume for harvey's wedding on friday. i built the remaining piece out of a pro-tec skateboard helmet, circuit boards, and my old dreadlocks but i still have to try everything on. oh and i called my date to try to progress on making plans for the actual day and i still have to call harvey and get the exact address so i can mapquest it. it's amazing i even had the willpower a month or so ago to call and try to get a date and with a person i haven't even seen in 2 or 3 years, cause that's just how i roll.
tomorrow i have to do a bunch of overdue maintenance on the scooter in case i end up riding all over this weekend and the weather needs to stop being a dick so i can ride to the library and get the engine all warmed up before i drain and change the oil. that may have to wait until thursday. thursday evening is the wedding rehearsal dinner. friday is the wedding. i jsut have to pysche myself up for leaving the house and then hopefully be in a decent enough mood to make conversation with my friends without cheating by drinking. at the moment i don't think i'm going to drink regardless but i don't want to be a drag for the wedding and the least i can do is be a decent date. everybody thinks i'm so nice and shit but that's only because they don't see me on the typical day when i'm just trying to get away from everybody and get back to the treehouse. russ is around me enough to see the asshole in me and call me on it. i would say the nicest thing about me is that if you totally piss me off and bother the living piss out of me but i think you're still a decent person i won't talk too much trash about you and i might not even fully express my disdain for you even in my private journal thats barring a glitch or a mistake in posting no one will ever see. I definately believe in not saying or committing to paper anything that might not be fair or i'd want to take back later or regret.
i let my girlfriend borrow my shirt:
Overshare?
now i've been typing thru one and a half shakira albums and i'm on to thao nguyen. Thao i'll listen to even if i'm not trying to sedate myself. i bought a generic mp3 player for 3 bucks at a yard sale a few weeks ago and i joked to josh that i would end up listening to the r&b and dance shit on there until i actually liked it but so far only Nelly Furtado's Maneater has stuck.
the pond's all dried up except for the far end where i dug it out the deepest. vincent likes sitting on the platform attached to the railing even when i put the cushion away so it won't get rained on. higgins is sleeping in here with me for the most part. sometimes he doesn't show up until around 11 or when i get up in the middle of the night to piss but he's been sleeping until i get up. he hears me on the balcony and then i see him running down the driveway. he was on this chair the instant i sat it down by the ladder to carry it up and now he steals it form me everytime i get up.
here's my lego ipod dock...i built it in march or so but have yet to take a good pic of it with a decent camera. extra usb wires and my cellphone store in the base.
i'm sick from going to the mall on saturday for glasses i suppose. it's stuffiness, dryness, coughing, feverish, sweaty but not enough to really alter my day, i couldn't really breath when i jogged yesterday but i would have got rained out today anyway. i'm really loving jogging. it's great to get the adrenaline pumping first thing in the morning when my patience is the shortest and before i've drank any coffee and don't feel like doing anything aerobic. i haven't even run at any real speed yet...i'm concentrating on just steady jogging and adding laps as i go along. i'm too impatient to stretch but it seems if i start out slow and warm up it does the job and i'm hoping it will help my back in the process because my thigh muscles have been so tight and i also feel my chest and back muscles loosening up after i've been running for awhile.
i only have read for about 20 minutes today and about the only thing i got done on my list for this week was getting together my costume for harvey's wedding on friday. i built the remaining piece out of a pro-tec skateboard helmet, circuit boards, and my old dreadlocks but i still have to try everything on. oh and i called my date to try to progress on making plans for the actual day and i still have to call harvey and get the exact address so i can mapquest it. it's amazing i even had the willpower a month or so ago to call and try to get a date and with a person i haven't even seen in 2 or 3 years, cause that's just how i roll.
tomorrow i have to do a bunch of overdue maintenance on the scooter in case i end up riding all over this weekend and the weather needs to stop being a dick so i can ride to the library and get the engine all warmed up before i drain and change the oil. that may have to wait until thursday. thursday evening is the wedding rehearsal dinner. friday is the wedding. i jsut have to pysche myself up for leaving the house and then hopefully be in a decent enough mood to make conversation with my friends without cheating by drinking. at the moment i don't think i'm going to drink regardless but i don't want to be a drag for the wedding and the least i can do is be a decent date. everybody thinks i'm so nice and shit but that's only because they don't see me on the typical day when i'm just trying to get away from everybody and get back to the treehouse. russ is around me enough to see the asshole in me and call me on it. i would say the nicest thing about me is that if you totally piss me off and bother the living piss out of me but i think you're still a decent person i won't talk too much trash about you and i might not even fully express my disdain for you even in my private journal thats barring a glitch or a mistake in posting no one will ever see. I definately believe in not saying or committing to paper anything that might not be fair or i'd want to take back later or regret.
i let my girlfriend borrow my shirt:
Overshare?
now i've been typing thru one and a half shakira albums and i'm on to thao nguyen. Thao i'll listen to even if i'm not trying to sedate myself. i bought a generic mp3 player for 3 bucks at a yard sale a few weeks ago and i joked to josh that i would end up listening to the r&b and dance shit on there until i actually liked it but so far only Nelly Furtado's Maneater has stuck.
the pond's all dried up except for the far end where i dug it out the deepest. vincent likes sitting on the platform attached to the railing even when i put the cushion away so it won't get rained on. higgins is sleeping in here with me for the most part. sometimes he doesn't show up until around 11 or when i get up in the middle of the night to piss but he's been sleeping until i get up. he hears me on the balcony and then i see him running down the driveway. he was on this chair the instant i sat it down by the ladder to carry it up and now he steals it form me everytime i get up.
here's my lego ipod dock...i built it in march or so but have yet to take a good pic of it with a decent camera. extra usb wires and my cellphone store in the base.