lonely
It's pretty sad when I have no one to talk to so I tell my wicked bad problems on livejournal.
I'm really lonely lately b/c all we ever do is fight. I don't know what happened from the beginning of the summer to now. We never fought always talked about things then bam, shit hits the fan. I try to tell her to communicate with me but she says I get mad. Well I get mad when you don't talk to me for hours, I get mad when youre pissed at me for something I have no control over, I get mad b/c I'm supposed to be the closest person to you and you cant even tell me that you are afraid of breaking up. Do you think this lack of communication and this nonstop fighting is goign to keep us together? WRONG. I try to be understanding of your ways of dealing with things but when it's not dealing with anything it doesn't work. I can't stop crying, I can't sleep, I can't focus....I hate when you tell me to leave...cuz I have no where to go. I hate when you twist my words or assume shit that doesn't even exist. I hate that I can't make you talk about things or even make u comfortable enough to talk to me. Sometimes I think that I was never meant for a relationship. I never seem to make anyone happy because I never make anyone feel good enough. I'm sick of feeling like crap and seeming to treat other people like crap. Apparently I missed the day of school where they teach you to be nice and play well with others. All i'm good at is fighting and still thats nothing to be proud of.
I'm really lonely lately b/c all we ever do is fight. I don't know what happened from the beginning of the summer to now. We never fought always talked about things then bam, shit hits the fan. I try to tell her to communicate with me but she says I get mad. Well I get mad when you don't talk to me for hours, I get mad when youre pissed at me for something I have no control over, I get mad b/c I'm supposed to be the closest person to you and you cant even tell me that you are afraid of breaking up. Do you think this lack of communication and this nonstop fighting is goign to keep us together? WRONG. I try to be understanding of your ways of dealing with things but when it's not dealing with anything it doesn't work. I can't stop crying, I can't sleep, I can't focus....I hate when you tell me to leave...cuz I have no where to go. I hate when you twist my words or assume shit that doesn't even exist. I hate that I can't make you talk about things or even make u comfortable enough to talk to me. Sometimes I think that I was never meant for a relationship. I never seem to make anyone happy because I never make anyone feel good enough. I'm sick of feeling like crap and seeming to treat other people like crap. Apparently I missed the day of school where they teach you to be nice and play well with others. All i'm good at is fighting and still thats nothing to be proud of.