there is a light..
befre i start this entry and what went on since i last updated, let me just say that cally marie sevald is my hero of the year. she saved me. completely. and truley. from my nightmare summer and freshman year, she saved my future from crumbling into peices, she saved me this weekend, she is my savior, and i love her dearly... and i dont no where i'd be without her.
this last week hasnt been so good with me and steven.. we tried working it out on thursday, when he came over.. but in the end.. he broke up with me on friday. i wuz so heartbroken. i spent 3 hours crying, for.. i dont even no. i like him a lot, but i dont think that's why i wuz so upset. i just starting getting close to him, i worry about him, and his life, his lifestyle, how he feels.. i want to be there for him. just when things were getting a little hard, i started feeling closer to him.. like if we could get through it.. it would of been ok. he told me things. i told him things. i trusted him. i felt like i lost so much trust, again. it's almost like love, boys, relationships.. like they're out to get me. almost always... it comez back to bite me in the ass. i miss him, and i hope dearly that we get back together, but at the same time.. im so lost and confused.. why.. how.. it all happend. i..i just dont no ne more..
again.. cally sevald. i love you.
~Suzanne**
this last week hasnt been so good with me and steven.. we tried working it out on thursday, when he came over.. but in the end.. he broke up with me on friday. i wuz so heartbroken. i spent 3 hours crying, for.. i dont even no. i like him a lot, but i dont think that's why i wuz so upset. i just starting getting close to him, i worry about him, and his life, his lifestyle, how he feels.. i want to be there for him. just when things were getting a little hard, i started feeling closer to him.. like if we could get through it.. it would of been ok. he told me things. i told him things. i trusted him. i felt like i lost so much trust, again. it's almost like love, boys, relationships.. like they're out to get me. almost always... it comez back to bite me in the ass. i miss him, and i hope dearly that we get back together, but at the same time.. im so lost and confused.. why.. how.. it all happend. i..i just dont no ne more..
again.. cally sevald. i love you.
~Suzanne**