...wtf...
ain't it funny how sumtimes..da people you least expect to care about you or think about how you're doing pop out of nowhere and touch your life and say shit to help you out of your lil depression shell...and da people you think would care da most jus end up not saying anything? it happened today..im stuck..like i can't tell wut n e thing is n e more..i can't tell if the way i feel is fake or real..i can't tell if the things i say or do are fake or real..i feel like i can't help myself..so y shud n e 1 b able 2 help me out?...i jus don't get it n e more..and it sux becuz life turns me away and leads me towards a dead end...im sick of dealin wit my feelings being hurt every fuckin morning and night. i hate da way i am..i hate everything at this point. but i owe u and thanks danny..i noe u got it ruff 2 but u still look out 4 me..i love u...julia i love u 2 :)
MiAmiPLaYa888: sup
MiAmiPLaYa888: wut u doin
Speshul Sushi: nutin man i feel like shit\
Speshul Sushi: n idk y
MiAmiPLaYa888: y u ok? me 2
MiAmiPLaYa888: n i hav no idea y either
MiAmiPLaYa888: lol
Speshul Sushi: damn..ur like da only one hooz noticed dat today..lol
MiAmiPLaYa888: it happens all da time 2 me
Speshul Sushi: i thought i was gettin over my depression n shit but i guess not
MiAmiPLaYa888: dont worry
MiAmiPLaYa888: diz kinda shyt usually happend wen im bored n alone
Speshul Sushi: :-(
Speshul Sushi: man i feel so worthless all of a sudden like theres no point in livin
MiAmiPLaYa888: awww
MiAmiPLaYa888: ive been feelin lyk dat lately cuz were havin money problems n were prolly gonna hav 2 move real far
MiAmiPLaYa888: n i like it here
MiAmiPLaYa888: i hav friends n shyt
MiAmiPLaYa888: n if i go up there imma b even more misreble
MiAmiPLaYa888: ill hav no1
Speshul Sushi: my dad is worse these days..
Speshul Sushi: to me
MiAmiPLaYa888: i can tell
MiAmiPLaYa888: hes an asshole
Speshul Sushi: i cant stand livin with him n e more
MiAmiPLaYa888: jus remember its only a year away
Speshul Sushi: i noe..but man..i hurt even more everyday itz like i cant keep doin this
MiAmiPLaYa888: a year can b a long time tho
Speshul Sushi: idk wut 2 do n e more..itz like i wana get shit over wit already but den there's things that r keepin me here..but like..i honestly cant tell which is worth more
MiAmiPLaYa888: i kno how u feel
Speshul Sushi: like rite now ur da only person im talkin 2 ..idk y but i feel like ur da only one i can talk 2 rite now
Speshul Sushi: lol
MiAmiPLaYa888: yay i feel special
MiAmiPLaYa888: im here 4 u
Speshul Sushi: damn..wut shud i do danny
Speshul Sushi: like i have jeri n every 1 like friends n shit but sumtimes i feel like im all alone
Speshul Sushi: becuz they dont have da same problem i do..like they have their own problems..but like i need more help dealin wit them cuz im such a fuckin emotional asshole
Speshul Sushi: idk n e more..wut am i supposed 2 do
MiAmiPLaYa888: i hav no idea either
MiAmiPLaYa888: thats y i cant even tell u
MiAmiPLaYa888: even tho itz da same 4 me i dont kno wut 2 do either
MiAmiPLaYa888: i feel lyk every day in my life is goin nowhere n gettin werse
Speshul Sushi: i've been sucha bitch to every 1 lately cuz i like..idk..jus shit happens and i dont want it affecting every 1 else..so i try 2 keep it inside..but den idk..people piss me off in sum way and like i jus end up goin off on em 4 da stupid shit ever cuz i have so much shit inside of me botherin me
MiAmiPLaYa888: i kno
MiAmiPLaYa888: the reason i kinda go off on sum ppl is cuz i dont see them as goin thru wut im goin thru n dey seem all happy
Speshul Sushi: yea..sumtimes daz my reason
MiAmiPLaYa888: dat makes me feel even werse
Speshul Sushi: :-(
MiAmiPLaYa888: at least wen im doin suttin i get muh mind of shyt
MiAmiPLaYa888: *off
Speshul Sushi: yuh but 4 me..no matter wut ...itz like im thinin about it
Speshul Sushi: ugh..i need help man
Speshul Sushi: man..but honestly 2 tell ud a truth
Speshul Sushi: i didnt think i'd b talkin 2 u about dis..there's usually one prson i go 2 cuz i feel like she understands me da most..but like..rite now i feel like she's not there..idk y..but like..itz like i dont want to bother her..and like instead of goin 2 her i went 2 u
MiAmiPLaYa888: o0o
Speshul Sushi: but it kinda hurts me more cuz i want her 2 noe wutz goin on..and i want her 2 b able 2 help me out but..idk..
MiAmiPLaYa888: damn.........
MiAmiPLaYa888: w/e yo im here 4 u
MiAmiPLaYa888: i feel da same way
Speshul Sushi: thnx :-)
MiAmiPLaYa888: i cant fukin stand it
MiAmiPLaYa888: i cant stand seein it in alot of ppl
MiAmiPLaYa888: i hate diz shyt yo..
sorry..didnt mean 2 make n e 1 else feel like shit or n e thing..jus..im being an weird ass mofo these days..but i jus thought for some of u who think danny/billy is an asshole..2 noe dat he's really not and da convo proves it. peace.
MiAmiPLaYa888: sup
MiAmiPLaYa888: wut u doin
Speshul Sushi: nutin man i feel like shit\
Speshul Sushi: n idk y
MiAmiPLaYa888: y u ok? me 2
MiAmiPLaYa888: n i hav no idea y either
MiAmiPLaYa888: lol
Speshul Sushi: damn..ur like da only one hooz noticed dat today..lol
MiAmiPLaYa888: it happens all da time 2 me
Speshul Sushi: i thought i was gettin over my depression n shit but i guess not
MiAmiPLaYa888: dont worry
MiAmiPLaYa888: diz kinda shyt usually happend wen im bored n alone
Speshul Sushi: :-(
Speshul Sushi: man i feel so worthless all of a sudden like theres no point in livin
MiAmiPLaYa888: awww
MiAmiPLaYa888: ive been feelin lyk dat lately cuz were havin money problems n were prolly gonna hav 2 move real far
MiAmiPLaYa888: n i like it here
MiAmiPLaYa888: i hav friends n shyt
MiAmiPLaYa888: n if i go up there imma b even more misreble
MiAmiPLaYa888: ill hav no1
Speshul Sushi: my dad is worse these days..
Speshul Sushi: to me
MiAmiPLaYa888: i can tell
MiAmiPLaYa888: hes an asshole
Speshul Sushi: i cant stand livin with him n e more
MiAmiPLaYa888: jus remember its only a year away
Speshul Sushi: i noe..but man..i hurt even more everyday itz like i cant keep doin this
MiAmiPLaYa888: a year can b a long time tho
Speshul Sushi: idk wut 2 do n e more..itz like i wana get shit over wit already but den there's things that r keepin me here..but like..i honestly cant tell which is worth more
MiAmiPLaYa888: i kno how u feel
Speshul Sushi: like rite now ur da only person im talkin 2 ..idk y but i feel like ur da only one i can talk 2 rite now
Speshul Sushi: lol
MiAmiPLaYa888: yay i feel special
MiAmiPLaYa888: im here 4 u
Speshul Sushi: damn..wut shud i do danny
Speshul Sushi: like i have jeri n every 1 like friends n shit but sumtimes i feel like im all alone
Speshul Sushi: becuz they dont have da same problem i do..like they have their own problems..but like i need more help dealin wit them cuz im such a fuckin emotional asshole
Speshul Sushi: idk n e more..wut am i supposed 2 do
MiAmiPLaYa888: i hav no idea either
MiAmiPLaYa888: thats y i cant even tell u
MiAmiPLaYa888: even tho itz da same 4 me i dont kno wut 2 do either
MiAmiPLaYa888: i feel lyk every day in my life is goin nowhere n gettin werse
Speshul Sushi: i've been sucha bitch to every 1 lately cuz i like..idk..jus shit happens and i dont want it affecting every 1 else..so i try 2 keep it inside..but den idk..people piss me off in sum way and like i jus end up goin off on em 4 da stupid shit ever cuz i have so much shit inside of me botherin me
MiAmiPLaYa888: i kno
MiAmiPLaYa888: the reason i kinda go off on sum ppl is cuz i dont see them as goin thru wut im goin thru n dey seem all happy
Speshul Sushi: yea..sumtimes daz my reason
MiAmiPLaYa888: dat makes me feel even werse
Speshul Sushi: :-(
MiAmiPLaYa888: at least wen im doin suttin i get muh mind of shyt
MiAmiPLaYa888: *off
Speshul Sushi: yuh but 4 me..no matter wut ...itz like im thinin about it
Speshul Sushi: ugh..i need help man
Speshul Sushi: man..but honestly 2 tell ud a truth
Speshul Sushi: i didnt think i'd b talkin 2 u about dis..there's usually one prson i go 2 cuz i feel like she understands me da most..but like..rite now i feel like she's not there..idk y..but like..itz like i dont want to bother her..and like instead of goin 2 her i went 2 u
MiAmiPLaYa888: o0o
Speshul Sushi: but it kinda hurts me more cuz i want her 2 noe wutz goin on..and i want her 2 b able 2 help me out but..idk..
MiAmiPLaYa888: damn.........
MiAmiPLaYa888: w/e yo im here 4 u
MiAmiPLaYa888: i feel da same way
Speshul Sushi: thnx :-)
MiAmiPLaYa888: i cant fukin stand it
MiAmiPLaYa888: i cant stand seein it in alot of ppl
MiAmiPLaYa888: i hate diz shyt yo..
sorry..didnt mean 2 make n e 1 else feel like shit or n e thing..jus..im being an weird ass mofo these days..but i jus thought for some of u who think danny/billy is an asshole..2 noe dat he's really not and da convo proves it. peace.