We are the Earth Intruders
Our softball game got canceled due to the huge chance of rain, so I decided to go running in the park after looking at the weather channel radar and decided it wasn't gonna rain for awhile (at 4:45). It was so sticky outside which makes me sad because this is Austin, not Houston. I hate it when it's really humid outside because it makes me overheat so much faster. I really hate it when I have to stop and walk because I'm overheated (not tired and out of breath). The rain was polite enough to wait until I was almost back to my car. Then, I stretched while it started to down pour (but my ipod was safely in the car). Town Lake is so awesome.
I really like running which is hilarious since I used to hate it. I run really slowly (I think dead people run faster than me), but I can keep it up for long distances (although I'm out of shape so long distance is like 2.5 miles right now). Hopefully, I can keep running in New York in Central Park and get back to where I was last semester (I got up to running 6 miles without stopping. I was proud).
I'll stop talking about running now. I just feel really good after I run so...yah. I guess I'm just in a super good mood right now.
I've got a physics lab practical test tomorrow. I'm being dragged to see Spiderman 3 at midnight Thursday. And I have a cumulative Tumor bio test a week from tomorrow. I'm not sure that tumor bio test will be but I'm going to try to get my ass into gear and start studying tomorrow for it.
I'm flying to New York on May 17th to meet and pick out my mentor. I'm excited...except I'll only be in New York for not even 36 hours because they are only paying for me to stay one night. That kinda sucks but they're paying for my plane ticket (to which I'm incredibly grateful for) so I guess I can't be too miffed.
I'm totally going to see ABT performances this summer. They're doing Manon, Cinderella, Swan Lake, Sleeping Beauty, La Bayadère, Romeo and Juliet, and probably something else. I'M SUPER EXCITED! I've wanted to see Swan Lake again for such a long time and I'm going to get to see it with MALAKHOV ::dies for a couple of seconds and then resuscitates::. I'll miss La Bayadère (it's in May) but I think I'd rather see Sleeping Beauty anyways. I kinda want to see Manon as well. I wish they were doing La Sylphide. I'd like to see that, the Tchaikovsky Pas de Deux, La Bayadère, The Dying Swan, Apollo, Études, Raymonda, La Fille mal gardée, and Les Sylphides before I die...to name a few.
I always feel like a cad because since I dropped out of company, I cry at ballet performances. I know that it wasn't the life for me (and I couldn't have gotten it regardless because of lack of body type and talent), but I wish that I could have gotten a solo in company, just once. I never got to have that moment on stage and I had wanted and worked for it for so long (stupid Vicki). I always wanted to have a pas de deux even if only for one performance. Watching these people dance so beautifully on stage (and knowing the magic that they must be experiencing) and knowing I'll never get that, that I never could get that no matter how hard I ever try, makes me sad.
I really love ballet but there are times where I wish I had never been in company because I still feel so angry about the fact that I worked so hard and really never got recognized for it (hell, Vicki treated me like shit my senior year because I wasn't in company). I didn't expect to get the lead in every dance and I know I wasn't the most fantastic dancer there but I worked my ass off in hopes that someday I'd get to have a solo when I was older just like everyone else who had worked hard. And it never happened. I'll stop ranting now. I talked about this earlier today so I've still got in on the brain. Ballet was such a huge part of my life and it feels like I didn't get to experience the best of it (after dreaming about it for so long) even after I'd worked so hard and sacrifices so much for it. I have good experiences but I still feel cheated. And thus, I cry like a stupid dork.
Okay, I'll stop being angsty and finish studying. School is almost the done. Hellz yes.
I really like running which is hilarious since I used to hate it. I run really slowly (I think dead people run faster than me), but I can keep it up for long distances (although I'm out of shape so long distance is like 2.5 miles right now). Hopefully, I can keep running in New York in Central Park and get back to where I was last semester (I got up to running 6 miles without stopping. I was proud).
I'll stop talking about running now. I just feel really good after I run so...yah. I guess I'm just in a super good mood right now.
I've got a physics lab practical test tomorrow. I'm being dragged to see Spiderman 3 at midnight Thursday. And I have a cumulative Tumor bio test a week from tomorrow. I'm not sure that tumor bio test will be but I'm going to try to get my ass into gear and start studying tomorrow for it.
I'm flying to New York on May 17th to meet and pick out my mentor. I'm excited...except I'll only be in New York for not even 36 hours because they are only paying for me to stay one night. That kinda sucks but they're paying for my plane ticket (to which I'm incredibly grateful for) so I guess I can't be too miffed.
I'm totally going to see ABT performances this summer. They're doing Manon, Cinderella, Swan Lake, Sleeping Beauty, La Bayadère, Romeo and Juliet, and probably something else. I'M SUPER EXCITED! I've wanted to see Swan Lake again for such a long time and I'm going to get to see it with MALAKHOV ::dies for a couple of seconds and then resuscitates::. I'll miss La Bayadère (it's in May) but I think I'd rather see Sleeping Beauty anyways. I kinda want to see Manon as well. I wish they were doing La Sylphide. I'd like to see that, the Tchaikovsky Pas de Deux, La Bayadère, The Dying Swan, Apollo, Études, Raymonda, La Fille mal gardée, and Les Sylphides before I die...to name a few.
I always feel like a cad because since I dropped out of company, I cry at ballet performances. I know that it wasn't the life for me (and I couldn't have gotten it regardless because of lack of body type and talent), but I wish that I could have gotten a solo in company, just once. I never got to have that moment on stage and I had wanted and worked for it for so long (stupid Vicki). I always wanted to have a pas de deux even if only for one performance. Watching these people dance so beautifully on stage (and knowing the magic that they must be experiencing) and knowing I'll never get that, that I never could get that no matter how hard I ever try, makes me sad.
I really love ballet but there are times where I wish I had never been in company because I still feel so angry about the fact that I worked so hard and really never got recognized for it (hell, Vicki treated me like shit my senior year because I wasn't in company). I didn't expect to get the lead in every dance and I know I wasn't the most fantastic dancer there but I worked my ass off in hopes that someday I'd get to have a solo when I was older just like everyone else who had worked hard. And it never happened. I'll stop ranting now. I talked about this earlier today so I've still got in on the brain. Ballet was such a huge part of my life and it feels like I didn't get to experience the best of it (after dreaming about it for so long) even after I'd worked so hard and sacrifices so much for it. I have good experiences but I still feel cheated. And thus, I cry like a stupid dork.
Okay, I'll stop being angsty and finish studying. School is almost the done. Hellz yes.