kris

[surfrbabe86]

i dont think kris n i r guna go out. we already act like we r its just not official. he says that he loves me but i think that hes only sayin that so he can keep hooking up with me without having to have a gf. he was planning on asking me on on friday for a week...well we hung out all night friday night and were still hanging out till saturday morning and he never asked me out. its been over a week since he said he wanted to ask me out and hes had plenty of chances. o well. i really like him but i like other ppl too. josh is really important to me. i could never ruin what we have so im scared to do anything with anyone afraid that josh will b mad even tho we never even went out. i was with matt n he was with tara and over sb everything was how it used to b. i found out the other night that josh only went out with tara to get to me and that hes liked me since 6th grade. wow. i was shocked bc i had always liked him too but i never really really like him like that till bout the end of 7th. on the 1st day of 8th grade i was soo shocked bc i walked into my science class and he was sitting there. i was really happy to see him but he didnt look too happy to b there...he was like 15 or 16 sitting in an 8th grade class. i wudnt b happy either. then i went n snuck up bhind him and wen he saw me he was just smiling and it was really weird and that class eas eventualy over and i was wondering if i wud see him after school and he was in my last class again! he ended up having to sit right behind me. we had a lot of fun in science but never too much fun in reading bc there was nohing to do in that class. he was only there for 2 weeks cuz then he was goin to halifax. not hes 17 n dropped out but hes goin to get his ged. he has a great job and could move out n like on his own if he wanted to. he keeps tellin me that hes guna pay for me to keep coming down all the time and he wants me to b down there every weekend and is really sweet but i cud never do that! i like the weekends here but i love the weekends with josh but i could never feel right nowing that he could have de so much more w. that $$ than waste it on me. i still want to move back and i will b4 im 17 but right now i dont know when i want to move. i can move now and live with josh bc his mom is awesome and hes great and it wud all b good but i think it wud b too good. weve got it all planned out for wen im 17 tho. its probly really confusing to hear bout kris n matt n josh n every1 else but i duno....theres so many ppl that r just so amazing. josh is more of a friend and kris is more of a bf type. im afraid to go out with josh bc weve been thru so much as friends and we never told eachother that we liked eachother till this week and its jus really fast and i dont kno if kris is serious or if hes just playin me. ill probly find out the hard way but o well. im out...mark is comin over later and we r guna have pizza n brownies!!! yummm! lol. later.

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*Brittany*