Ugh my poor momma
Went and hung out with after eating some wings with onion rings and iced tea with Tim and Steve. I hate when my mom is sick because I feel so hopeless, we just watched the golden girls until she went to bed. I hate seeing women I care about hurting. I ended up driving home crying and thinking of that you are my sunshine song she used to sing to me as a kid. I love my mom I just hate being so helpless when she's sick. This year is starting to be just as shitty as 2013, Josh was down here for Christmas and we didn't even get to hang out, that still bothers me. I'm tired of being lonely and sad. I've met a few new friends that are gals but meh I just don't feel comfortable talking to anyone since I'm still in pain and at a loss for someone else. Come on God, help me please. I'm so tired of crying and being sad. I saw Kenny Starkey last night, he met me at the Voodoo Queen which was cool. I hate not being able to get over someone. I don't think I'm going to Mallary's wedding later this year. The thought of seeing Carly with her baby and her probably now husband or whatever will kill me. I quit lookin at her Instagram a long time ago because I know it will just make me want to kill myself. I just had a spidey sense she had her baby and was right so I messaged her on fb to no response, that's fine. Mallary told me about it so blah. Life is hard enough when you belong here.