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so i screwed up. but geez cut me some slack. i felt so incredibly uncomfortable! and insignificant and ugly and stupid and in the way.... like i was a bother. and it didn't help that my mom asked me if you even wanted me there. and then when i asked i didn't feel too convinced. but no big deal.
so my life doesn't always go the way i want it to. and people dont always do the things i want them to (i'm not speaking just to you).
and it didn't help that when i had lunch with my mom, she mentioned you leaving. i honestly didn't think it would effect me this much - but it does.
i found out two things the past month or so... one i've actually known for quite a bit longer: i am insecure and i am jealous.
ive always been insecure and because of that, i recently found out, i'm rather jealous. and i used lie to myself that i wasn't. what a fool i've been. even if people aren't comparing me to other girls, i am constantly.
so anyway, i'm sorry.
so my life doesn't always go the way i want it to. and people dont always do the things i want them to (i'm not speaking just to you).
and it didn't help that when i had lunch with my mom, she mentioned you leaving. i honestly didn't think it would effect me this much - but it does.
i found out two things the past month or so... one i've actually known for quite a bit longer: i am insecure and i am jealous.
ive always been insecure and because of that, i recently found out, i'm rather jealous. and i used lie to myself that i wasn't. what a fool i've been. even if people aren't comparing me to other girls, i am constantly.
so anyway, i'm sorry.