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i miss looking at stars. i miss alone time. don't get me wrong...it's been AWESOME meeting up with people and catching up. it's crazy how much you don't know about a person until you actually talk to them one on one. one thing i learned at camp this past summer was that if you're more open with people, they're more open with you. i learned it from my camper. in one of the first bible studies, i shared about my relationship (or lack of) with my father, and in my one on one with one of my girls, she thanked me for being so open and trusting them and then shared about her parents. but yea...i miss taking walks. this year has been so...different...good and bad...and i feel like i just wanna walk into infinity and talk to God about it. hmm...note to self...i am definitely gonna take a walk one night this week. maybe i'll check the forecast and go when it's clearest =)
i dislike very very strongly how the quarter flies by. ridiculous. there's ALWAYS something i wanna get done that i just don't have time for. hmm...note to self...take "time-outs" during the day. stop and smell the roses, if you may. except i don't really like using cliches. i will make up my own...how about...stop and eat a 5-course meal. multiple meanings. obviously, i enjoy food. so i wanna stop and enjoy life. take in all the many flavors and spices that make up my day, because sometimes i don't notice them, but they're always there. second meaning...i eat ridiculously slow. so if i stop and eat a 5-course meal...do you know how long that'd take me? some would say days. some would say years. i don't mean to pause life for days or years. just slow it down a bit. stop rushing throughout the day, thinking about what i have to do next, and just take the time to savor the moment. hmm maybe this makes more sense in my head than it does here. oh well. in my head is all that matters since i'm saying it to myself anyway. "michelle...stop and eat a 5-course meal!" yea i talk to myself. i do that a lot when trying to decide something. but that's irrevelant to this entry. HAHA i was almost dyslexic when typing "this" in the last sentence. i'm gonna leave it at that. i should sleep. dang i'm tired. i miss my sunday naps.
i dislike very very strongly how the quarter flies by. ridiculous. there's ALWAYS something i wanna get done that i just don't have time for. hmm...note to self...take "time-outs" during the day. stop and smell the roses, if you may. except i don't really like using cliches. i will make up my own...how about...stop and eat a 5-course meal. multiple meanings. obviously, i enjoy food. so i wanna stop and enjoy life. take in all the many flavors and spices that make up my day, because sometimes i don't notice them, but they're always there. second meaning...i eat ridiculously slow. so if i stop and eat a 5-course meal...do you know how long that'd take me? some would say days. some would say years. i don't mean to pause life for days or years. just slow it down a bit. stop rushing throughout the day, thinking about what i have to do next, and just take the time to savor the moment. hmm maybe this makes more sense in my head than it does here. oh well. in my head is all that matters since i'm saying it to myself anyway. "michelle...stop and eat a 5-course meal!" yea i talk to myself. i do that a lot when trying to decide something. but that's irrevelant to this entry. HAHA i was almost dyslexic when typing "this" in the last sentence. i'm gonna leave it at that. i should sleep. dang i'm tired. i miss my sunday naps.