disappearing

[sureburt]

Right now, more than anything in the world, I just want to graduate and get the hell out of here. I'm finally feeling the effects of senioritis and, along with it, a growing malaise that tightens my jaw and hardens my stare. I don't like feeling this way. I want to be happy and fun and care-free, but it's getting harder and harder to smile

Comments

[mss60614]

Burt, it seems as though not long ago I made some comment in a post that one day I thought you would just fall off the LJ earth, and vanish...not to be heard from again by those of us who only know you thru this venue, until you made some amazing discovery and won the Nobel Prize for your finding.

Well, sadly, that time appears to have come, and it truly has turned what was going to be a relaxing three-day weekend of maybe too much good times and thinking about myself and what I'm wanting to accomplish...into a weekend that starts knowing this amazing void is coming into my life.

Damn, we never met...yet thru this journal I feel that I know you far better than many 'friends' I've known longer than you've been alive. Perhaps that is my penultimate compliment to you. That your journral, your words, your expressions of your life can create such an amazing insight into a truly wonderful and important man...Damn you, Burt, you will be missed by so many, and your 'disappearing' will leave a void for so many that you may not realize.

All the best, my friend. You've been a total class guy. Yes, like us all, you've had your pain, but what you have given to so many - sometime unappreciated - and will always give, speaks in untold words. You'll be missed. All the best.

Marshall

[sureburt]

this isn't the end (yet)! i appreciate the kind words, but i'm not quite ready for them. five weeks from now, you bet, but at the moment... it almost makes me wonder if i really am ready to graduate. yikes.