Lost
today i discovered another fact about myself. I always try and convince myself that I am trying hard, and hat even after trying hard I'm not acheiving the desired results. Such a lie, I know that I never try hard or long enough and always blame my failure on the circumstances. for e.g- whenever I want to quit smoking, i never finish the process or practice enough restaraint. like today when i was smoking, even though my craving was satisfied as i finished half the cig. still continued smoking, and had i not givn the rest of thh smoke to a friend , i prolly woulda finished it too. I tell myself to go after things, but my lethrgy and lack of ambition always becomes a impediment. I hope things change soon.
anyway I'm exited to go back home , a coiuple more weeks and I'll be outta here. good food, relaxation, my own car, (among teh top fewinthe list of things that im miss the most), my pool, i can't wait. Also waiting to hear back from boeing, and BASF about my internship status, please get back to me soon. thinking about going to kendra's on friday. Satrang is gonna be over this weekend too, what a relief from endless practices.
anyway I'm exited to go back home , a coiuple more weeks and I'll be outta here. good food, relaxation, my own car, (among teh top fewinthe list of things that im miss the most), my pool, i can't wait. Also waiting to hear back from boeing, and BASF about my internship status, please get back to me soon. thinking about going to kendra's on friday. Satrang is gonna be over this weekend too, what a relief from endless practices.