Going Back
If you leave a place you've lived in for almost 22 years of your life to get your mind together and to grow up is going back worth it?
I've been thinking alot about moving back to Michigan lately. My mother had a brain aneurism about two and a half months back and, well, I'd like to be closer to her. In the same breath, though, one of the reasons I left was to get away from my family. Now don't get me wrong - I love my family with all of my heart....but I knew that if I didn't leave I wouldn't be able to fully grow up and be the man my parents want me to be.
While moving back for family is the main reason there's also a possibility that has arisen recently that I'm unsure of how to deal with. You see, I have a possible opportunity to obtain happiness with someone I've wanted to be with since I first met them. It's only a possibility...but it could possibly lead to the relationship happiness that has eluded me for the vast majority of my adult life. I have genuine feelings for this person and we compliment one another well (we always have)....but do I uproot myself to take that chance?
My comic book is almost complete, the first issue possibly coming out in February. Michigan is a comic town and would probably be a stronger base of operations....but I was never able to concentrate for five seconds while I lived in Michigan and the comic never even got 5% complete while I was there. Could I be putting myself into a distracting position again? Sure, I'm more disciplined nowadays but, well, Michigan has always had it's distractions.
Is it all worth going back? I'm still not sure.
Konichiwa, bitches.
I've been thinking alot about moving back to Michigan lately. My mother had a brain aneurism about two and a half months back and, well, I'd like to be closer to her. In the same breath, though, one of the reasons I left was to get away from my family. Now don't get me wrong - I love my family with all of my heart....but I knew that if I didn't leave I wouldn't be able to fully grow up and be the man my parents want me to be.
While moving back for family is the main reason there's also a possibility that has arisen recently that I'm unsure of how to deal with. You see, I have a possible opportunity to obtain happiness with someone I've wanted to be with since I first met them. It's only a possibility...but it could possibly lead to the relationship happiness that has eluded me for the vast majority of my adult life. I have genuine feelings for this person and we compliment one another well (we always have)....but do I uproot myself to take that chance?
My comic book is almost complete, the first issue possibly coming out in February. Michigan is a comic town and would probably be a stronger base of operations....but I was never able to concentrate for five seconds while I lived in Michigan and the comic never even got 5% complete while I was there. Could I be putting myself into a distracting position again? Sure, I'm more disciplined nowadays but, well, Michigan has always had it's distractions.
Is it all worth going back? I'm still not sure.
Konichiwa, bitches.