Angel Carry Me Far Away...

[supertimmay1117]

I've never felt so lost and in the dark. I let the depression get the best of me last night and became someone I hate once again. Even if it was only for a night, I let the old asshole come back around. I am disappointed in myself and today I feel absolutely weak and damaged. I know I am stronger than all of this and I know I can beat it. I know I messed up and I know Jessi is upset with me, all I can hope is that she sees what I do. Old Tim wouldn't feel this way today, Old Tim would not want to do everything he can to never get there again. Drinking is overrated and all it does is make things worse, then you wake up with a hangover. I can't let this one set back discourage me, I still know I love her and she loves me. I know we need each other. I realized that she is the only person worth all this pain. She is the only person I hurt for, with, and over. She is the one I am so willing to change for and the one I want so badly to protect. I know I can do this. I love my kids and I love my wife, I dont want one thing to ruin them seeing that.

Jessi,
I love you. You are my best friend and the one person I am so willing to change for. I don't wanna be someone you hate. I am so sorry for tripping on the path to being a good guy. Please just don't let this one little stumble let everything fall. I am strong enough and I am holding on for dear life. Stand by me and hold on to me please. I love you....