why do you always doubt that there can be a better way...
another weekend passes by where i find myself spending too much
time thinking about myself, occupied partially by vanity. when
i'm drawing i watch myself in my mirror, and my blue turtleneck
almost makes my skin look like it is glowing.
but still, this is time spent watching my reflection, thinking
about self reflection. it's really difficult for me to be
constructively critical of my life and myself. it's easy to
entrap myself with things i should do and people i should add up
to, but tbese are unachievable highs. so instead, i find myself
crawling around on the ground.
here i can see all the diminutive things; the dust, the particles of my life,
the shreds of history and the pieces of people that i know.
i can realize everything that's wrong, and still feel as if it's impossible
to make a change. i get stuck and become quickly unable to climb
the ladder to positivity. these are defeatist things, and i have to
work myself out of this cycle.
i've been so ungrateful lately, and it needs to change. i can't forget the things i've seen in the world and the hands that i've held that have constantly taught me and reminded me of what is really important. it's so easy to forget. it's so easy.
time thinking about myself, occupied partially by vanity. when
i'm drawing i watch myself in my mirror, and my blue turtleneck
almost makes my skin look like it is glowing.
but still, this is time spent watching my reflection, thinking
about self reflection. it's really difficult for me to be
constructively critical of my life and myself. it's easy to
entrap myself with things i should do and people i should add up
to, but tbese are unachievable highs. so instead, i find myself
crawling around on the ground.
here i can see all the diminutive things; the dust, the particles of my life,
the shreds of history and the pieces of people that i know.
i can realize everything that's wrong, and still feel as if it's impossible
to make a change. i get stuck and become quickly unable to climb
the ladder to positivity. these are defeatist things, and i have to
work myself out of this cycle.
i've been so ungrateful lately, and it needs to change. i can't forget the things i've seen in the world and the hands that i've held that have constantly taught me and reminded me of what is really important. it's so easy to forget. it's so easy.