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Jul 14, 2003 02:46

Godddammit, everything sucks. I need to move because my roommate is too anal retentive for me. I found a place to move but it won't be ready until August 20. It's at least relatively cheap, has hardwood floors and a fireplace, but shit. It's really irritating. And, when she's pissed, she makes shit up. Like, she claims things are dirty that I have scrubbed from top to bottom. I'm also not terribly certain why I am the maid here, and why it's always my responsibility to clean everything and pick up after her damn teenage kids and shit. I also want my cats back. Badly. I mean, Bunnicula is the only one missing, but I want her back so bad it hurts. I love my bunnyfatkins.

My job is pissing me off. I have no days off this week and that sucks, particularly because I'm supposed to be practicing with my band Wednesday nights and then going out with the bitches. I don't think that one day off a week is too much to ask, personally, but shit. Shit shit shit shit shit.

I feel like I'm going crazy. I don't know who or what I am or what I'm doing. I feel like I have to be fake for everyone so I won't scare or disgust them. My boundaries are ten feet bigger than everyone else's. I'm pretty much autistic and it makes it really hard to be a normal part of society, particularly considering that I have no desire to be a part of society.

Crap.

Crappity.

I'm such a shit to my friends sometimes.

I need to find a new job. I deep fried my hand the other night. I'm getting paid next to nothing and working more than forty hours a week. This sucks. I want a third shift gas-station job so I can be paid to sit on my ass and read.

Cuntapple.

Why is life so difficult for me and not for others? Just living is so hard.

tora-b
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