wow ... where has the time gone?!?
wow! i cannot believe that summer is almost over ... merely hours now until school begins ... what a depressing thought
this summer has really been awesome - i had a great job and made alot of money, hung out with my friends, made new friends, and enjoyed myself ... best yet, i visited two new countries, and LOVED IT!
my london trip was perhaps one of the best experiences of my life ... i saw so many sights within london and throughout scotland, and experienced an entirely new culture ... it is so odd that, although so similar in background and language we are to england and the united kingdom, there is such a cultural gap between the U.S. and G.B. - i feel really blessed to live in america ... to anyone who groans about the U.S., i would tell them to visit any foreign nation and come back and realize how advanced our country really is ...
i got so much done (i.e. a few college apps, chem work, and most of my summer reading) but the aeneid is proving to be my toughest task yet! - i just cannot get past a couple pages - i find myself re-reading constantly because i cannot keep my place! o well ...
i cannot believe that so many of my friends are away at college ... it is unfathomable that in one years time, we will all be at college, and some of my closest friends, as well as family, will be hundreds of miles away, and i will be submersed in a new community ... strange thought to me, especially because i think of myself as young, and i definitely do not feel ready for the responsibilities of a college student ... hopefully this senior year will prepare me!
one thing has really been bothering me lately, and i really want to try to remedy it in my life ... i've finally opened my eyes to the people who take advantage of me - it really makes me mad! ... there is one person in particular for whom i constantly seem to be doing things - favors or not, i do not know - yet, i never seem to be able to reap my award ... i feel like a gopher! ... it always seems i am picking up the odd tasks here and there that no one else wants to do, getting stuff done, yet never feeling that what i am doing is getting me anywhere ... i realize that many things i do are my responsibility because of the position i hold, but it would be nice if i got some support and help from others in the same position, and i wasn't always stuck doing the "dirty work" ... ugh, why do i let people do this to me? i really have to learn my lesson someday - i mean, this has been happening since i was little and i was stuck with all the work for a project ... i am not afraid to speak out, but yet, because i like to do things for myself so that i know they are done right, i rarely delegate tasks and remember that i do not have to do everything and be superwoman! ... why do i get myself tangled up in these messes?
o, and yes, looks as if i won't be starting on the tennis team for yet, another year ... things just always seem to get messed up ... came back from london to find that there were all these god freshman ... i really wish the tryouts had been a singles round robin to determine teams (varsity and jv) - seems to me that there are girls sitting on varsity who do not deserve to even be on the team, and are wasting valuable room for some of the many freshman that are truly talented! i know that i am not exactly "burning up the court," but i just don't get why these extra people should be on the team ... i especially feel bad because my partner has to be on jv and varsity (a floater) because these other girls are sitting ... o well ... life isn't always fair, and i probably didn't put as much time into tennis as i should have this summer ...
well, have to go for a run, and then shower and such, considering i have to go to SCHOOL :-( tomorrow ... training for freshmen orientation - i am sure it will be thrilling as always! - steph
this summer has really been awesome - i had a great job and made alot of money, hung out with my friends, made new friends, and enjoyed myself ... best yet, i visited two new countries, and LOVED IT!
my london trip was perhaps one of the best experiences of my life ... i saw so many sights within london and throughout scotland, and experienced an entirely new culture ... it is so odd that, although so similar in background and language we are to england and the united kingdom, there is such a cultural gap between the U.S. and G.B. - i feel really blessed to live in america ... to anyone who groans about the U.S., i would tell them to visit any foreign nation and come back and realize how advanced our country really is ...
i got so much done (i.e. a few college apps, chem work, and most of my summer reading) but the aeneid is proving to be my toughest task yet! - i just cannot get past a couple pages - i find myself re-reading constantly because i cannot keep my place! o well ...
i cannot believe that so many of my friends are away at college ... it is unfathomable that in one years time, we will all be at college, and some of my closest friends, as well as family, will be hundreds of miles away, and i will be submersed in a new community ... strange thought to me, especially because i think of myself as young, and i definitely do not feel ready for the responsibilities of a college student ... hopefully this senior year will prepare me!
one thing has really been bothering me lately, and i really want to try to remedy it in my life ... i've finally opened my eyes to the people who take advantage of me - it really makes me mad! ... there is one person in particular for whom i constantly seem to be doing things - favors or not, i do not know - yet, i never seem to be able to reap my award ... i feel like a gopher! ... it always seems i am picking up the odd tasks here and there that no one else wants to do, getting stuff done, yet never feeling that what i am doing is getting me anywhere ... i realize that many things i do are my responsibility because of the position i hold, but it would be nice if i got some support and help from others in the same position, and i wasn't always stuck doing the "dirty work" ... ugh, why do i let people do this to me? i really have to learn my lesson someday - i mean, this has been happening since i was little and i was stuck with all the work for a project ... i am not afraid to speak out, but yet, because i like to do things for myself so that i know they are done right, i rarely delegate tasks and remember that i do not have to do everything and be superwoman! ... why do i get myself tangled up in these messes?
o, and yes, looks as if i won't be starting on the tennis team for yet, another year ... things just always seem to get messed up ... came back from london to find that there were all these god freshman ... i really wish the tryouts had been a singles round robin to determine teams (varsity and jv) - seems to me that there are girls sitting on varsity who do not deserve to even be on the team, and are wasting valuable room for some of the many freshman that are truly talented! i know that i am not exactly "burning up the court," but i just don't get why these extra people should be on the team ... i especially feel bad because my partner has to be on jv and varsity (a floater) because these other girls are sitting ... o well ... life isn't always fair, and i probably didn't put as much time into tennis as i should have this summer ...
well, have to go for a run, and then shower and such, considering i have to go to SCHOOL :-( tomorrow ... training for freshmen orientation - i am sure it will be thrilling as always! - steph