what happened?
hey..so....I posted this killer tell all too much journal entry last friday -- and something happened and it didn't post...was I that drunk that i couldn't figure it out? did I just cancel without posting? these are all possibilities -- as I have been so freaking busy lately...and riding that roller coaster way up....and here I am on the ride down....damn...I hate the down part....been really working so much that the down part is not really that noticable, but....it was today...it's been several days since the fabulous guy from LA has emailed...and I'm a wee bit sad about it....I mean...I should know better than to get my hopes up with some guy that I've been emailing since November and promises that he's interested in me....jez....why do I do this crap to myself...as if all that wasn't enough, pretty much everyone I know is leaving town this weekend.....which will make the weekend interesting....thinking it's time to go out dancing by myself....gotta get a groove on..as I've become a slug and miss going out to hear music..although...I've been listening to some stuff on my computer...and there are lotsa songs that remind me of my car alarm(just now heard one)...and since I got my car broken into, the house/techno stuff with the car alarms bring a knot up in my stomach and a real uneasy/queasy feeling....so bizarre how right Pavlov was about the conditional training (jez...is that really the right word?)....I suppose it is and if it isn't, well fuck it....doubtful there's too many reading this crap anyway....
but on the upside of the mopey is that I've been working nothing less than 10 hour days for the past month.....probably longer than that...as I just did my expense report...worked over 60 hours each of the past two weeks....don't think this pay period will be so flush with the overtime, but.....should be a pretty rocking one too....also...learning lotsa stuff and it's all kinds of challenging....and....don't really have any time to eat either...so..that's kinda good...digging that part...
Okay..sooo freaking late! gotta get some sleep in so I can deal with that last day of the work week.....thank goodness we've reached this point!
but on the upside of the mopey is that I've been working nothing less than 10 hour days for the past month.....probably longer than that...as I just did my expense report...worked over 60 hours each of the past two weeks....don't think this pay period will be so flush with the overtime, but.....should be a pretty rocking one too....also...learning lotsa stuff and it's all kinds of challenging....and....don't really have any time to eat either...so..that's kinda good...digging that part...
Okay..sooo freaking late! gotta get some sleep in so I can deal with that last day of the work week.....thank goodness we've reached this point!