so sticky......
It was so hot today -- well, not really hot....but Northern California hot -- and now that I've lived here for 5 years, I've become a big pansy about the heat too....and so I thought it was kinda hot today..... a good day overall....however, I was really hurt to find out that my friend from macro camp got to see just about everyone solo except me.....I went to lunch with him, and several others.....and it was there that I found out that he had spent some time with this other friend of his -- as well as had lunch/breakfast with some other people.....I try not to take things like this too personally, but....I can't help it....I was dissapointed to find that he had all this time to see everyone else, couldn't get the phone calls together enough to call me...oh well...guess I need to get over it....we went to Fisherman's Wharf, and the girl he had come here to see was all put out that we were up there, so even the brief visit he and I had was all tainted by her freakiness.....she's kinda neurotic.....I don't know why the hell he flew all the way out here to get some action from her....it's all too bizarre for words....she says things like "I'm really glad we're becoming friends" to me....but she says it in a tone/manner that makes me not believe her....like she's saying it because she thinks she should....oh well, guess macro people can be freaks too....
Overall it was a good day, though....had lunch with them....turns out there were six of us total....which is fine....I like everyone who was there, and it was good to visit....the trip to the wharf was kinda wierd....but I got more squished pennies....so that's good..then I had another blind date....wtf...I really need to get over it, and not go on any new ones..well, I have one more lined up, but I think I have a good assortment of guys lined up in the background at this point, and won't be persuing any other ones, although, some other ones may happen....the guy tonight was real nice....kinda smaller than I am -- so that's kinda wierd...it doesn't really bother me so much, but it usually bothers the guy....he was a real cutie....also much cuter than in his emailed photo.....
So....of course, what's a journal entry without reference to Dave....Dave....Dave.....what can I say? he's trying.....I finally sent him an email....I had called him to ask if he wanted to get together on Saturday....he said he was working....okay, fair enough....work is good, and I understand he isn't bound by the 9-6 M-F schedule that I am....so that's fine....but....and here I am probably getting overly sensitive again, but he didn't say....no, but I'd like to see you on such and such date, or no, unfortunately, I have to work......I know communication isn't one of his strong points....so I'm cutting him so much slack (mostly because he's hotter than sliced bread! and is a super - nice guy to boot)....but....anyway...so I finally broke down and sent him an email saying that he needed to invite me to do stuff too, and that I felt like I was pulling him out to do stuff....and that it wasn't making me feel good about myself when I put in all the effort of us getting together.....well, within two hours of that email, he called me - and emailed me....so I guess that's good, but....the very nature of my email was a kind of pulling in and of itself....if it's a lasting learning process, I think it will be good, but.....I won't /can't make it a habit of doing that.....I just need someone who's more motivated towards spending time with me....I've dated guys like that in the past...and they all have driven me crazy in the end.....some more so than others....so....I'm wide awake now....due to the heat, and the fact that I just got this message from him (I was totally asleep when he called).....he invited me to go bike riding with him -- so I might very well be doing that with him tomorrow....which is good....it will be good to have someone to ride with.....and I know he's wanting/needing to get some exercise in too....so it might be nice....just need to figure out the logistics of how I want to get to the city.....
On a side note, I got some walking exercise in today.....walked all over San Francsico....I miss living in the city....so easy to walk everywhere.....no car required.....
Okay...well, I'm going to try to rehydrate, and go back to bed.....
Overall it was a good day, though....had lunch with them....turns out there were six of us total....which is fine....I like everyone who was there, and it was good to visit....the trip to the wharf was kinda wierd....but I got more squished pennies....so that's good..then I had another blind date....wtf...I really need to get over it, and not go on any new ones..well, I have one more lined up, but I think I have a good assortment of guys lined up in the background at this point, and won't be persuing any other ones, although, some other ones may happen....the guy tonight was real nice....kinda smaller than I am -- so that's kinda wierd...it doesn't really bother me so much, but it usually bothers the guy....he was a real cutie....also much cuter than in his emailed photo.....
So....of course, what's a journal entry without reference to Dave....Dave....Dave.....what can I say? he's trying.....I finally sent him an email....I had called him to ask if he wanted to get together on Saturday....he said he was working....okay, fair enough....work is good, and I understand he isn't bound by the 9-6 M-F schedule that I am....so that's fine....but....and here I am probably getting overly sensitive again, but he didn't say....no, but I'd like to see you on such and such date, or no, unfortunately, I have to work......I know communication isn't one of his strong points....so I'm cutting him so much slack (mostly because he's hotter than sliced bread! and is a super - nice guy to boot)....but....anyway...so I finally broke down and sent him an email saying that he needed to invite me to do stuff too, and that I felt like I was pulling him out to do stuff....and that it wasn't making me feel good about myself when I put in all the effort of us getting together.....well, within two hours of that email, he called me - and emailed me....so I guess that's good, but....the very nature of my email was a kind of pulling in and of itself....if it's a lasting learning process, I think it will be good, but.....I won't /can't make it a habit of doing that.....I just need someone who's more motivated towards spending time with me....I've dated guys like that in the past...and they all have driven me crazy in the end.....some more so than others....so....I'm wide awake now....due to the heat, and the fact that I just got this message from him (I was totally asleep when he called).....he invited me to go bike riding with him -- so I might very well be doing that with him tomorrow....which is good....it will be good to have someone to ride with.....and I know he's wanting/needing to get some exercise in too....so it might be nice....just need to figure out the logistics of how I want to get to the city.....
On a side note, I got some walking exercise in today.....walked all over San Francsico....I miss living in the city....so easy to walk everywhere.....no car required.....
Okay...well, I'm going to try to rehydrate, and go back to bed.....