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So this is what it feels like to work your ass off and fail. I am not handling all the responsibility I have been put up to. Despite constant work and always striving, I seem to be stuck in a pattern of running with my tail between my legs. I can't seem to get my lack of organization skills to change fast enough. I don't feel I am getting anything done.
Tonight I have to talk to my supervisor about my performance today and I know I did not do as well as I had planned. DAMNIT! I work very hard and then I flop at the things I am working on. It isn't lack of planning, but more the case that I get nervous and that I also have been sick and ignoring it for almost a week. I do not feel well right now. The stress is not helping.
I really feel that I am failing student teaching. My supervisor was not happy today. I am scared... I want to do well and I know I am a hard worker, but something isn't clicking. Until I find out what that something is, I don't believe I can improve.
All I can do is wait and see, I guess. I am scared shitless right now and I can't eat. The stress is ripping me apart.
Tonight I have to talk to my supervisor about my performance today and I know I did not do as well as I had planned. DAMNIT! I work very hard and then I flop at the things I am working on. It isn't lack of planning, but more the case that I get nervous and that I also have been sick and ignoring it for almost a week. I do not feel well right now. The stress is not helping.
I really feel that I am failing student teaching. My supervisor was not happy today. I am scared... I want to do well and I know I am a hard worker, but something isn't clicking. Until I find out what that something is, I don't believe I can improve.
All I can do is wait and see, I guess. I am scared shitless right now and I can't eat. The stress is ripping me apart.