sad thoughts
so i'm sitting here at my sister, listen to music well the babies are sleeping. and as i'm sitting here listening to one of my fav song and it a kinda of sappy love song but i help to like it Brandy "Have you Ever". It about loving someone that does love you back but how much you love them. But the song makes me so sad because it seem like thats how my life seems to go, i have crashes on guys but never seem to have thing other then that with the guys i like. how sad. don't get wrong i don't hate my life for this and i have to problem dealing with it. but how this song just made me so sad i felt like writing about it. So these days is just like if has always been i'm alone with no guy that makes me happy but how i'm always wishing and hoping for that. like the song say its true for me and i hate to say this out loud but i would do anything for that guy to make him happy, so i could be happy. But it seems at this point and so far in my life i'm meant too be alone. how i hate. It seem that some how i'm broken and have always been that way and no one whats to be there i help to to stay together. Don't get me wrong either, even though i say i'm broken doesn't mean i'm not strong and i can't hide it, because in truth thats what i do. i hide it from everyone thats around me. Don't let anyone know that there is something wrong but there always is. ok well i don't know what else to say now...not ever sure i should have said anything at all.........