Melancholy Moments
It's almost 4 a.m., and I'm still awake. I could attribute it partially to sleeping too much today, but I know that's not really the problem. I feel like there's something deep inside, that just doesn't want to quiet down. I feel kinda lonely, questioning, and I know I need to just shrug it all off... But, there's so much going on inside, and I wish for someone to talk to, but I can't seem to bring my walls down right now.
I don't want to be alone right now. But, I know its how I have to be. I find myself missing someone, something, wanting... I feel like I can't move on, but I can't go home. And I just feel... weak, and vulnerable, and all the familiar things are gone. I'm free, to make my own choices for the first time since I was 18.
None of this really makes any sense. I'm tired, and I just... feel frustrated with myself and my life altogether.
I don't want to be alone right now. But, I know its how I have to be. I find myself missing someone, something, wanting... I feel like I can't move on, but I can't go home. And I just feel... weak, and vulnerable, and all the familiar things are gone. I'm free, to make my own choices for the first time since I was 18.
None of this really makes any sense. I'm tired, and I just... feel frustrated with myself and my life altogether.