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So Heidi was worried I'd be angry with her when she told me she was moving to Texas in May. Granted I was sad the first time she brought it up because it seemed more like she was simply going down there for Skylar's benefit when she had more to lose from a move. Supposedly he has a job now and I trust her to make wise decisions... I just don't think I trust him... especially after... well all that shit. I even wrote him a big letter and if I ever do see him again I may give it to him. It was more written just to get me to stop mentally fuming over it.
Anways... yeah I'm sad, but not really angry. I sort of new it was coming one day... just seems so soon. I also always new it was BS every time she'd say "Why are you buying that series? I have it."
Well... because you're bound for the other side of the world to be with the unmoving rock.
Blurgh. Ah well.
I'm left with very few close friends... it's like 1 and a half now. Not that distance will make her any less of a friend... I just don't think she understands how lazy I am when it comes to relationships. This'll pretty much mean I'll never see her again apart from the occasional whisper on WoW and the yearly Anime Detour (if she really keeps coming to it like she says).
I'm not sure how to stop everything I was from being swallowed up into daily monotony. I know it was wrong of me to depend on Heidi to keep that part of me alive, nothing lasts forever, but it was just easy that way. She was like the other side of me. Hopefully the fear of that happening will prevent it from happening like it has to so many of my co-workers.
Yusuf... he knows so many languages, was a professor of Agricultural Biology, was working on some giant project back in his country. Now he gets looked down upon as some leeching foreigner who may or may not have a bomb hidden under his apron. Russ at the pro desk has a masters in business and now he has to forward calls all day and look up orders for men who look like they've been rolling in their own filth all day and who can't wait 5 minutes while he goes and grabs it for them. Amanda from floor and wall, sometimes expected to run the whole department on her own and causing her to get yelled at by old bag yuppies who can't look for tile colors without someone holding their hand... has a degree in... something interesting... and was working on... some cool shit.... blerg. Vicki... she had a degree in Criminal Justice, was going for her masters.
Yeah, it's just a job for money, right? Just to fund things? Yusuf's been there for years now... and Georgenne? God, I think it's been 20 years for her.
I should be getting my one year badge soon. It scares me shitless.
Anways... yeah I'm sad, but not really angry. I sort of new it was coming one day... just seems so soon. I also always new it was BS every time she'd say "Why are you buying that series? I have it."
Well... because you're bound for the other side of the world to be with the unmoving rock.
Blurgh. Ah well.
I'm left with very few close friends... it's like 1 and a half now. Not that distance will make her any less of a friend... I just don't think she understands how lazy I am when it comes to relationships. This'll pretty much mean I'll never see her again apart from the occasional whisper on WoW and the yearly Anime Detour (if she really keeps coming to it like she says).
I'm not sure how to stop everything I was from being swallowed up into daily monotony. I know it was wrong of me to depend on Heidi to keep that part of me alive, nothing lasts forever, but it was just easy that way. She was like the other side of me. Hopefully the fear of that happening will prevent it from happening like it has to so many of my co-workers.
Yusuf... he knows so many languages, was a professor of Agricultural Biology, was working on some giant project back in his country. Now he gets looked down upon as some leeching foreigner who may or may not have a bomb hidden under his apron. Russ at the pro desk has a masters in business and now he has to forward calls all day and look up orders for men who look like they've been rolling in their own filth all day and who can't wait 5 minutes while he goes and grabs it for them. Amanda from floor and wall, sometimes expected to run the whole department on her own and causing her to get yelled at by old bag yuppies who can't look for tile colors without someone holding their hand... has a degree in... something interesting... and was working on... some cool shit.... blerg. Vicki... she had a degree in Criminal Justice, was going for her masters.
Yeah, it's just a job for money, right? Just to fund things? Yusuf's been there for years now... and Georgenne? God, I think it's been 20 years for her.
I should be getting my one year badge soon. It scares me shitless.