If I try to say your name, I'll just bite my tongue.
[Private to Ginny, Hermione, Harry, & Morag]
Something really big happened last night. Yes, yes, I talked to Fred. But it's a little bit more than that this time. If you look, you'll see what I mean. He says that he likes me. That he thinks I'm adorable. Basically, he said everything I always wished he would.
I always thought that I'd jump at the chance, you know? To finally be with him. It's like him ever actually feeling the same way about me was just too good to possibly be real, and I think a part of me refused to believe it. And the other girls, that bothers me a lot too. He'll never get a moments peace, and I'll always be here, and wouldn't that make it really hard for him to stay faithful to me?
Sure, there's a perfectly good chance that all will be fine and that things will work out. But after all this time, I'm really terrified that they won't. The last thing that I want to do is run into this head on and let there be so many reasons why it could be entirely ruined. I'd rather wait until I was out of school and positively sure that I could give him everything I have, so that I won't have to worry about those beautiful girls and so that he gets the attention he probably needs.
I feel so ... fustrated. Why does he do this now? Why not when we were in school? Or why not wait until we were both out of school? But at the same time, I'm happy he did this now, just so I know. I told him that I need some time to think, and I do. I know that I'll always feel this way about him, so it's really just a question of now or later. Of course, depending on whether or not something happens in that period of time, like if he loses interest in waiting or something.
Either way, there are so many downfalls. I wish I could just know he would be able to wait for two more years. This is all I've ever wanted, so why is it so hard?
He said I'm his "gorgeous ray of sunshine". I can't say I've ever heard him call another girl a name like that.
And Ginny, did you talk to him? Or even George? I keep thinking that maybe they're trying to use me as a way to stay connected with what you're doing. I feel so bad thinking that, but I'm just ... terrified.
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Four days until my birthday! This is the official countdown, folks. And it's also a day closer to the start of Quidditch! HARRY, I WANT TO START PRACTICE WITH THE TEAM SOON! I really am entirely excited. I've been practicing all summer, wait until you see how much I've improved! The tutoring session with Morag and Theo went over well yesterday, though Morag seemed to do more staring than studying.
And today, lovelies, I think I need to meet up with the ladies again.
Something really big happened last night. Yes, yes, I talked to Fred. But it's a little bit more than that this time. If you look, you'll see what I mean. He says that he likes me. That he thinks I'm adorable. Basically, he said everything I always wished he would.
I always thought that I'd jump at the chance, you know? To finally be with him. It's like him ever actually feeling the same way about me was just too good to possibly be real, and I think a part of me refused to believe it. And the other girls, that bothers me a lot too. He'll never get a moments peace, and I'll always be here, and wouldn't that make it really hard for him to stay faithful to me?
Sure, there's a perfectly good chance that all will be fine and that things will work out. But after all this time, I'm really terrified that they won't. The last thing that I want to do is run into this head on and let there be so many reasons why it could be entirely ruined. I'd rather wait until I was out of school and positively sure that I could give him everything I have, so that I won't have to worry about those beautiful girls and so that he gets the attention he probably needs.
I feel so ... fustrated. Why does he do this now? Why not when we were in school? Or why not wait until we were both out of school? But at the same time, I'm happy he did this now, just so I know. I told him that I need some time to think, and I do. I know that I'll always feel this way about him, so it's really just a question of now or later. Of course, depending on whether or not something happens in that period of time, like if he loses interest in waiting or something.
Either way, there are so many downfalls. I wish I could just know he would be able to wait for two more years. This is all I've ever wanted, so why is it so hard?
He said I'm his "gorgeous ray of sunshine". I can't say I've ever heard him call another girl a name like that.
And Ginny, did you talk to him? Or even George? I keep thinking that maybe they're trying to use me as a way to stay connected with what you're doing. I feel so bad thinking that, but I'm just ... terrified.
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Four days until my birthday! This is the official countdown, folks. And it's also a day closer to the start of Quidditch! HARRY, I WANT TO START PRACTICE WITH THE TEAM SOON! I really am entirely excited. I've been practicing all summer, wait until you see how much I've improved! The tutoring session with Morag and Theo went over well yesterday, though Morag seemed to do more staring than studying.
And today, lovelies, I think I need to meet up with the ladies again.