bye bye, squish.

[superboydyke]

Today I've decided to seriously start a mission I should've started a long time ago. The one time when I didnt need to, was the one time when I would've wished for anything else.

But it's a mission that will improve my health as well as other things. And I need to do it at least a little bit before I take T.

No, i'm not quitting smoking.
not yet, anyways.

Wish me luck and success, my friends.

I'd tell you what it is, but even when I get the encourgement and what I suppose are meant to be compliments, I cant stand it.
because being what I am going to be is one of the things my mother wanted, which is why I have been so reluctant and uncaring about the subject.

I daresay you'll notice If I succeed.

anyways, the subject, for some reason or another, bothers me on a few levels. I wouldnt use the word embarassed, though I am tempted, I know I totally shouldnt be.
arr.

anyways. Thought Id make those statements.

as to my earlier line about not getting drunk....

i lied.

heh.

thanks to vodka and coke for the motivation, though it is largely due to the subjects I've been dwelling on in the deepest... or close to, of my mind as of late.

ta ta, friends and lovers.