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superbigcluck

a new day

Oct 14, 2008 13:48

Im really excited by some journal entries Ive read on here. Its amazing to see there are people out there going through many of the same feelings and experiences I am. The worst part of everything that has happened in my life is feeling so alone. I feel like most people can't relate to what Im going through, when they hear the whole story they ( Read more... )

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non_factor October 19 2008, 11:27:28 UTC

I remember when my ex cheated on me. She's got Endometriosis, and was in the hospital for an ovarian cyst the size of a softball. After her surgery, I cared for her day and night, even taking a week off work. I remember she'd be in so much pain, i'd need to carry her to the toilet, or bathe her, or just help her to eat. She didn't handle pain very well.

After she cheated, I remember wondering "Was all that for nothing?". The person she's with now wasn't there for her when she had her surgery, or when her father died. But, I don't feel it was time wasted. I showed that I care, even if she doesn't care for me back. And that's okay with me.

Remember, at least you can live your life knowing that you care about another human being, regardless of how violently they rip your heart to shreds in front of you. Actively caring about someone is one of the grandest examples of love and humanity we can give.

Don't ever lose that.

late response.... superbigcluck November 6 2008, 07:04:40 UTC

Im sorry I didnt respond to this sooner than now. As always, your words truly resonate with me. You are right, it is better to show that we love and face the hurt and rejection than to withold our true feelings and miss opportunities to be intimate with other people. I dont regret loving for her, caring for her in sickness and in health... I just struggle with how she likes to justify her actions by blaming me for not paying enough attention to her, working too much, not being romatice enough. She told me she wouldnt have cheated had I been a better girlfriend, had I dressed up more often, had I been more interested in sex. She had turned sex into a chore by complaining about it, and always wanting it on her terms. I gave her everything I had and more...fuck, Im so pissed today!!!! I let her convince me I was a piece of shit that ruined this fucking relationship, had I given anything else I would have ceased to exist as my own person entirely. I sacrificed so much, it was just never enough. The real kicker is the bitch she is ( ... )