Long time no post......

[superbestia]

So yeah its been like that lately, mind travelling too fast, findly found my writing rhtymn this weekend and wrote meaningful things in my hardcopy journal. I hadn't updated in a while, it felt good to feel the flow for it was too long. Our first weekend with S back from central america, its been interesting seeing her deal with the culture shock and mental adjustments that take place from the Dad to Mom hand off, its always messy as can be expected. For the first time since we moved in this place feels like home (or the closest feeling to one i have had since '99). On Sunday i stayed in, peeked out a couple of times outside but just stayed in, with the expection of 5 days since '99 (3 of those days i was sick as a dog) i guess this place has grown on me. On Saturday we went to Celeste's Birthday Party, its interesting seeing this face of the community blossom and grow, we are a growing community as evidenced by the offspring running around, for years i have seen the adults converge, come and go, but having the little ones around its somehow different, like apples and oranges, maybe its been around for a while but just now i am surrounded by some great parents out there, that inspire me and teach me that it can be done without sacrificing all the parts of your life that you harbored and nurtured thus far.
On the guerratierra side of things, been trying to articulate what is going on my head its hard, embarassing at times but much necessary for my growth. I feel like a newly hatched chick still wobbly and not able to fully express myself in a way that mere mortals can understand, i am good with the nonverbal its the verbal stuff i have trouble with and its not pretty at times, its easier to internalize but i guess if i am to continue to grow and branch out this must be done, for my sanity and the sanity of others around me... much more discoveries await......just need the patience and the words to bring them out........